Never thought Id ever feel this way ahain...but.. i want to die. Dont care anymore and neither does anyone else...i have no hope for a future other than more of the same, that is, this reality. My gp made me realise there is no hope for me and Ill be alone forever. Ive been able to act on it as of yet as im scared too..scared of failure..scared of successfully completing suicide too. Will I go to hell? Probably. Thats my biggest fear. Too scared to phone crisis numbers as I dont know what to say..my default is "no im fine no worries" when asked or speaking out loud so I think thats all that would come out......
Hi I'm not on this site anymore, but yours story rings so true to me it's not even funny so I had to message you.
I know exactly what your going through exactly this was me three weeks ago don't do like I did I realise the pain your in I can see it in your words
I chose to over dose thought it would be quick easy go sleep and bam all done I took 160 co-codomol after reading 50 would do it
Still bloody woke up the next day but sick as a dog two days go by not a problem third day got stomache cramps after constant pain for 4 days I go the Drs sent me for bloods I've goosed my liver if it don't repair or there's not a solution my liver will shut down it'll then allow the blood to fill with toxins and have a knock on effect to all my organs until I die of multiple organ failure nice thought right slow and painful it'll be I hear lol
Be careful what you wish for springs to mind
If your dr has made you feel your beyound help change your damn doctor
You are never beyound help your worth more than malevolent thoughts your just lost in the darkness let done one turn the light on for you
Thinking of you mike
Hi there k8861. I care if u die wether i know u or not. U are brave enough to tell us here on the forum say exactly the same to the crisis team at hosp or to yr dr . After weeks of treatment that could change everything. Ive been in your position so many times and an attempt in 2001 i was found and almost succeeded. I can never do wat i often think now as i have my daughter. When were ill we cant see it but wow the worlds an amazing place. Lots of glorious things to see explore & ppl to meet and yes ive had that said to me wen suicidal and used a lot of swear words x but give yrself a chance. Listen to mercy me's song on youtube i can only imagine its so beautiful and helps me in time of need xx much love xx
Hey mike send us a pm let me tell u about my first day at the gym i cant get u im not on fb xxx
Ps you say I'm suffering from depression and I am intending to hurt myself or take an overdose kill myself or anything that's all you have to say they will help you ( they won't lock you up you have my word stop being scared of that) they will make sure someone is with you that's all
Be smart make the right choice and call them
Thats true tell them wat u told us xxx
Hi there
Alot of people can relate you truly. That's why I'm on here.
I have felt low so low suicidal hurting myself.felt so alone didn't think I could talk to ANYONE. I'm older now.
Please reach out!!!
Your G.P how did he she " made you realise " no that is not a good doctor could you see another one? there's help out there please don't do anything. You are hurting you are a person a human being you deserve to be happy
Most of us go along saying I'm fine when we are in fact far from it.
I don't know your name or age but it's not too late too share.
Please reach out..
There are helplines , Councling, C.B.T this forum and many other therapies.
Please reach out to a different doctor
Vicky
Take care
I don't know you as you can see people care x
My friend called 999. police asked me to speak to the first response mh team, which I did. I was highly distressed and the woman was telling me to not have negative thoughts and to think of things that made me better in the past. I tried to explain I was in no state to be sble yo do this. She said i was rude and non collaborative. I was shaking made worse. Rang gp as i didnt know who to call next she was supportive. Nurse with police arranged (supposedly) an assessment with nurse at hospital but when i got there saw a mind worker who just said they try talking with them first and as im under mh team already i need to call the team tomorrow.
Hey have u sought any help? Hoping you have n hoping yr ok. Want you to know were thinking of you ♡♡♡ xxx mandy xx
Just seen the text above sorry. Hope u get somewhere with the team tomorrow xxxxx
Hi Mike, hope you are okay. Like Amanda said, I couldn't find you on Facebook either. I hope k8861 takes your advice because you have been there and know about it firsthand. Take care.
Hi hun. As phylis just said she couldnt find u either. Ur truly missed as uve walked those dhoes v v recently. Xx hope u pop back xxx
Shoes even*