I guess my depression is acting up. I'm feeling sorry for myself and, comparing myself to others, am feeling very deprived in life. The good news is I'm allowing these feelings to happen which I never did in the past. I always repressed them before. Sighing a lot and it's a rainy day which is the perfect backdrop for how I'm feeling.
I’m sorry to hear this, but I can relate. I’ve been feeling down too lately, lots of stress in my life. I hope we have better days.
I think a little time helps to bring about an upswing in our moods and a return to what can be called ‘normal’. It is the next day and I am not feeling sorry for myself so much as feeling angry. But feeling angry is my default condition, my baseline way of feeling; and it’s always, always about people! I dont like my surroundings or the type of people who live here. They’re very different than the type of people I grew up with and even though I’ve been in this area for years and years I never seem to stop feeling angry about the people here. It is my own failure to prepare for my future and lay some groundwork which is responsible for me having to live in these conditions. Dont get me wrong I am very fortunate in that my immediate apartment and buiding is in a pleasant area with trees and such. It’s as I said the people who get me down.