TLDR; extreme stomach pain and involuntary vomiting cause of ED. no solution, feeling hopeless. ever since college started, i've been industriously trying to lose weight through chewing and spitting. this worked for me, but i still consumed food when i ate with my friends and my stomach had started hurting from c/s, so i turned to binging and purging instead. i've been c/s, b/p and restricting for the past 5 or so years, and i only recently started experiencing the consequences of my ED. firstly, I'd have really bad stomach pain all the time. it's located under my chest (around the centre?), and is a wrenching pain. it hurts literally 24/7, and especially after i eat. when i purge, the pain is a little bit better, but when i c/s, it would hurt so much that i'd have to lie down for at least 2 hours. i've eaten omeprazole, pantaprazole, alkaline tablets, alkaline water and just everything my local pharmacy had, but the pain is still not subsiding. i can't stand straight anymore, im squatting whenever i can to ease the pain, and i carry a (kinda useless) hot water bottle everywhere. i'm really afraid that i ruptured something while purging, or that all the extra stomach acid just killed my stomach lining. in addition, i've started vomiting involuntarily. i'd never experienced reflux before, not even after i purged, so i thought i was relatively safe, but then this happened. whenever i burp, literally everything in my stomach would just stop pouring out of my mouth. and i can't stop until i've vomited everything out. whenever i bend down, too, my stomach contents would just start leaking into my mouth and i'd start vomiting again. i really can't control this, and i've accidentally vomited in public around five times already. also, vomiting seems to temporarily cure my stomach pain (for around an hour). whenever i eat, my stomach just hurts like shit until it eventually forces the vomit up, and when i vomit, no matter how long it is after my previous meal, everything would be undigested--there would be literal chunks of food. my stomach pain and vomiting has been ongoing for around five months? ish? i stopped my disordered behaviours around a month ago because my stomach was legitimately killing me, but i still can't eat properly because of my vomiting issues. i feel like i can't stomach anything. i've only been eating porridge for the past week, which doesn't give me bad stomach pain, but i still regurgitate it out. i can't even eat any of my previous safe foods anymore as well. i'd have urges to puke really randomly, and would have to excuse myself from lectures and run to the bathroom frequently in case i started vomiting. i work a part time job at night, which is coincidentally when my stomach pain is the worst, and i'd spend most of my shift sitting and pressing my hands into my stomach and sweating because of the pain. i've been caught dry heaving over the toilet/ puking pure stomach acid multiple times by my coworker. i've seen two gastros for my stomach pain, who diagnosed me with gastritis, but the prescribed meds didn't help at all? they also gave me vomit-suppressing meds, but it just makes me feel nauseous and sick. i feel crippled: i can't walk properly, stand properly, eat properly, do anything properly. i feel hopeless. i'm tired all the time and i've lost all my muscle mass. i just want the pain to stop and actually be able to eat things again.