I will say latley ive been a decent amount better in terms of depression and anxiety but for years i just think about my life at age 33 and how its VERY depression and giving me this sick anxiety feeling in my stomach. i think how normal i felt when i was 19 to 24 ish years old. i had some anxiety and depression but id say manageable. i would go out to bars maybe socialize with some friends, meet woman which i miss but the worst thing is the nastalgia feeling i get! i think wow remember when i was 20 years old and i could skateboard and actually run down the road being 160 pounds?? now im 215 not a massive guy but i cant do anything sports wise anymore! skateboarding around town, walking or biking to a friends house without huffing and puffing. when i think about watching skateboarding videos with my friends and how it was just fun to even go out by myself and skateboard around town that was fun and there was no cloud over my head. it makes me SICK to my stomach thinking about old memories. i was younger, way better cardio. im not sure if other people get this sick feeling like there on a roller coaster ride in there stomach when they think of old times and nastalgic times but i get that. id drive to an old buddies house a few cities away and just everything seemed normal.... than things started to change. drove down to my buddies and his parents said he moved to toronto, went to another friends house and his mom said hes away for university. i get that things change but its hard for me to accept. around when i turned 25 when i gained weight and cant even walk let alone play a physical sport without being tired things feel terrible. im trying to eat better and exercise but im completley disappointed in myself physically. honestly one of the main reasons im not working is from stamina issues. anxiety and depression dont help but an 8 hour day is actually taxing on me and im only 33! blood work says im fine. can anyone elaborate or explain all this or have anything similar?
Hi Dave my issues may not be exactly the same but I am stuck in the past too. I obsess about it and just want to go back to when things were better. I have flashbacks and feelings all day about the past and i cry all the time. Nostalgia just kills me every day and the passage of time i just cant handle it. I cant accept when things change it affects me so much now that I have no family or friends in my life. I am totally alone and its doing my head in. I used to think about the past and get sad and then move on but now its like my mind is stuck there and im living in some weird time warp past life. .Its so horrible . The feelings get so intense I want to end my life. I miss my family. I miss my old life and I just cannot accept that its gone and nothing will ever be the same again. I feel your pain I really do. I hope you find peace soon and get your life back on track ..take care
Hi Dave,
Sorry to hear you are going through a rough time. I have the exact opposite problem to you and spend too much time worrying about the future!
I fine that when my anxiety is bad it zaps my energy and just getting through the day is hard.
Ed
I can relate to how all of you are feeling. I very seldom am thinking in the now,I either think about the pat or worry about the future I need to lose about 50 pounds,I did about 6 yrs ago,after the course of 3, I gained it back. It helped me so much. I am not in good physical condition .If I get on a treadmill or even walk,it will have to be slow and steady. I started that way before I dropped the weight,within a month I did much better. I know it would help with my mood and anxiety. Wish you all the best,I know it is soo hard.
Everyone gets older, everyone changes with age that is part of lifes cycle .. I read you miss the way you were , the way it use to be , your fit day, slimmer and more energetic days . Well , from this day forward work on on YOU , the new you , get your energy in gear , work on those abs , stengthen your goals ,to where you want to be by next month . Then 6 months , a year . You be do this dave ! Have new dreams , each day you work on your new dreams , the leave behind the depression as your mid goes into the future buff you !! You can do this ! By the way get your vitamin D checked , low levels causes depression , body weight and weak muscles !
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