Today is my birthay...and i am alone in my flat contemplaiting suicide.
A few days ago i lost my job..over something that was not my fault. I always let people step on me to avoid problems. Now im here wondering how I am going to pay my rent. I have no one and i am undocumented and no one will hire me that way. I have no family , no boyfriend ..and soon no house..Everyday i told myself tomorrow will be a better day ....or next month it will be better....next year will be my year.....but its not. Better yet this year will be my last year. There will be no one who misses me. I am convienced when i leave this world i will perhaps have a better afterlife in another world.
I am finally ready to go I cant bare this loneliness and feeling completely worthless...
Hi there ,,, to start with " HAPPY BIRTHDAY" your birthday should be a day of celebration :-))) are you getting help from anyone i,e doctors , counciling , if not a would start there ( try the counciling ) am doing it and it does help to talk and get it off your chest , and dont contemplate suicide there is always someone out there wanting to help people , thats why this forum is so good ,, people do listen and want to talk because most people on this site have gone threw pain ( as your going threw) but please talk to someone it realay does help !!!
Hi zrahy,
Happy birthday!!!
I can tell you where you are now and how your feeling is where many of us have been who use this site. It's good you come here. Your going through lifes challenges and what a pain they are! I'm not sure how you stand legally for work where you are as you say you have no documents, so perhaps your a foriegn worker, perhaps leaving you with no work rights. Is there any way you can go ask for your job back? Can you perhaps go to citezens advice to see what rights you do have (if your in the UK)? Do you have somebody you can talk to? All the time we have our health we can find a way out of situations, you just need to think through the problem and work out what options you have, even not so good options are options, right? And you just need something to get by with for now, so when your thinking consider short term options as as well. But stay strong because many people do care, including myself, so give yourself a lifeboat and stop thinking bad things for yourself, your worth so much to this world and you will find your way, as the rest of us here can tell you. This is a crap time for you but it will pass and you will be ok, please feel free to email me on this site if you would like to talk more, and please take care.
Warmest regards
Norman
Hi there and happy birthday
I'm sorry to here how your feeling and I know what it's like I have been in the same situation many times and often thought I would be better off dead. The only way I could stop my self from taking my life was to realise that death will not make me better and it's permanent and the thing is what's happening now is not permenent . I often think that if I took my life then I would never have the joy of feeling better and it can get better, what's happening now is not the way it will always be but when you feel like this you can't help but think you will always feel this way and that's just not the case. I have tryed to take my life in the past but I'm so glad I never did as my life is coming together at last and I know that there will be bad times and good times because that's life but I have excepted that now and find it best to live one day at a time. My advice would be to go to A and E and you will get to see a phyciatrist and maybe will be given some diazepam just to take the edge off until you get past this. Try and keep talking to people I know you don't feel like it but even if you just talk on here will help because we all understand how you feel bless your your heart xxx
happy birthday!!
I am sorry your in this situation i am also in the same situation and coming or mirtz at the moment ..no one to support me ..try take support off anyone u trust...book your self in for councilling with your GP or anyone if you dont have GP.. it is hard im that that place too! seek help there is help out there for you..you are not alone ..julie
See someone. Suicide is final and there is no way out of that. There is a way out of where you are right now. People want to help. There are good people still out there. Find a free clinic or something. You have to make it happen and take the second step. You took the first one coming on this site. We have all been there and still struggle with it everyday. You can too.