Hi all. I'm 26 years old. I have a lot of great things in my life. I have wonderful people in my life too. But, every single day is a struggle for me. I feel like I have always had bouts of depression ever since I was a teenager, but for past like 2 years now (this past year being the worst) I feel like I have no control over my thoughts. I want so badly to feel happy, and I just find it so difficult. I feel like I have little moments of happiness and the rest of the time I feel empty inside. It's takes me hours and hours to fall asleep because I can't get out of my own head. I struggle so much to get out of bed and feel motivated for work. All week I just want the weekend to come, thinking I'll feel better, but I don't, and then it all starts over again, like an endless cycle. I just feel like I'm going to the motions, and I just want to feel alive again.
You may want to see a dr for meds. Also a therapist will help you too. My mind races at night and I can’t sleep. The dr gave me sleeping pills and they work. It is important to get sleep. You are not alone. All of us here have experienced what you are going through. So don’t feel alone. We are always here so don’t hesitate to come back and talk and vent. Please go for professional help. It sounds like you need it. They will help you. They will know what to do for you to help you feel better.
Hi Jennifer. So sorry for the mental pain you are experiencing. Have you ever been diagnosed with depression? It sounds like you can't stop your mind but are seems like you are shut down emotionally. Does that seem to fit? Diane
Lots of love to you Jen, your 20's are such a difficult time. I remember trying to prove myself and I didn't know what it was or who I was tying so hard to impress. Going through the motions is how you feel when you're depressed angel. You can try talking to people or you can skip that and go to the doctors. Sorry, but that is the best option. Medication stops your brain feeling like it's on fire, and slows everything down enough for you to be able to think a bit more clearly for a while! xxx
Hi Jennifer - first stop is the doctors shop. Explain what you are feeling. Medications may be prescribed. They are a tool used in conjunction with therapy/counselling or psychotherapy to address issues and alter thought processes around them. Meds are a hit and miss affair. There are many available and what works for one will not work for another. One of the issues with depression is that it can fluctuate. I spent decades fooling myself that my depression would just 'go away' one day and all would be fine. Ten years after finally seeking help, i still have depression. Will do for life. But at this stage I know why I have depression, I know what exacerbates it, I know that i am not alone with this, and i also know that things could be a lot, lot worse. Best of luck to you Jennifer.