Everything feels weird

Hello everyone,

I hope I can get my thoughts through but it's really hard to explain but I've been feeling quite strange fora while now... I only can explain through examples: inter alia I feel weird drinking water, I feel weird eating foith friends, I feel weird to just sing or dance or have fun. Everything feels weird. Sometimes I do nothing just to feel normal. Further more I'm really scared that something is wrong with me because I keep imagining stuff; it's embarrassing to say ,but sometimes I cry because I miss someone whom I don't even know. Also, I don't know if this has to do with this matter ,but I keep hearing my father calling me but when I go to see him he denies calling me each time. Last summer too, I saw a black tall figure in my room and totally believed it and ran away thinking it was an intruder but when my father checked there was no one there.... I'm all of this up and thinking that something must be wrong with me. I feel like I'm going crazy....

I can relate to how you’re feeling. I feel overwhelmed being around people and doing ‘normal’ things. Things that I never found difficult before, but I know it’s because of the anxiety that I feel this way. Have you been to see your doctor for a chat about how you’ve been feeling? 

Here where I live, we don't really have "our doctors" culture and going to psychiatrist is supposed to be for "crazy" people..... This made it even harder. I also do not have the courage to try and go see a doc. I'm not sure anymore if there's something, really, wrong with me or if I just want something to be wrong with me...