Extreme Health & Personal Anxiety - Can Anybody Offer Any Advice?

Mental health
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Hi Everyone.

I have always been a very nervous person, fainting during exams, panic attacks before interviews, worrying over the smallest and silliest of things. But as of late, I feel it has hit a bit of a brick wall regarding being able to relax and clear my head. 

I've just started a new relationship, for about 2 months now. I truly believe he is my soulmate, everything that I could have possibly wished for. My dad was recently given the all clear from tonsil cancer, and I have settled into a new job which I am loving. All the above are really good things, and reasons for me to be so happy! However, I have recently decided to diagnose myself with HIV - before even being tested. 

I've had 16 sexual partners, in which 8/9 of these have been unprotected. I have never even given this a second thought until my current boyfriend said he had never had unprotected sex in his life, which got me thinking. I have never had an STI, and have regular swab and urine tests, all of which have been negative. But these last 2 weeks I have worried myself stupid, googling stats, googling probability etc. It is driving me insane. I haven't eaten properly in two weeks, and have lost nearly a stone in weight. Baring in mind I have never experienced any ill health, especially after unprotected sex, I am a very healthy person with a very good immune system, but I cannot get this out of my head. 

I have booked to have a test done this evening - and my boyfriend is coming along with me. I feel this is the only way to set my mind at rest! However, once this is all over, I feel I should potentially get some help/advice on how to treat my anxiety. I guess my main purpose in writing this post was to see if anyone else had any similar experiences? And to offer any advice at all? It would be great to chat to some of you about similar experiences, and how to take the next steps to help.

Thanks.

Charlotte. 

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Hi Charlotte, Everyone on here has had many similar experiences as you. I am positie tat your test will be fine but getting it is improtant to put your mnd at ease. You already recognize that you need to get treatment for your anx now. You are in a good place in your life. There are great treatments that will help you get over the hump. Try to enjoy your amazing life and don't borrow trouble as my mother in law used to say. You are strong, you are healthy, and you are loved!

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Hi Kathy.

Thanks so much for your reply. I love the saying that your mother in law used to say 'Borrow Trouble' I think its very relevant for my current situation! I do feel that once this is all over, the big anxiety problem may go away - but I obviously won't know until then so that's why I'm seeking advice, I just want to feel normal again! Your words have really helped me, thanks so much smile

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Hi yes the EFT techniques work amazing for pee who keep it up. It's probably most like acupuncture and meditation of course in one. Hope all will get better for you !

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No NOT "pee" lol but "those" hahah don't know how auto correct did that!

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well charlotte,

I don't think you have any anxiety issue, I think you are reckless with that unprotected sex thing, which than create an unwarranted anxiety.

First step, act responsible, have protected sex or abstain and you wont be anxious

You live on the edge, what you are experiencing is more a thrill than a reakl anxiety disorder, because you know and can control what create your anxiety