Fear of Chronic Stress That Causes Hospitalization

Mental health
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So guys, i just git into this HUGE argulent with my mom. It started in the car, we drove all the way home arguing, & got in the house & argued more. I started crying & hitting things. I have pretty tough skin & I really don't let things bother me. She has a bit if an alcoholic problem because she's been dealing with a lot of things & that's her coping mechanism. We've gotten into arguments about this before. Ive pretty much gotyen over it now. Doesn't matter what she said or did, i know she didnt mean it. She repeatedly kept telling me how much she loved me, would die for me, & she apologized as well. So i honestly dont care & try not to dwell on the past. But, I noticed that when it first started to escalate, my heart started beating reallllly fast, my head hurts now. My breathing is fine & I can't feel my heart anymore. I think I've calmed it down. Bit my anxiety is getting to me. It's making me think that I will die because of an argument. Like i'll just pass out or something or have a heart attack. It's playing tricks on me & im starting to believe it.

I'm religious, & I notice that everytime something good is about to happen, an evil spirit tries to take all the joy away & turn it around for the worst. It's trying to disarray my family, make me & my mother hate eachother, & so on. Just earlier me & my mom went to the store together. We were laughing, seeing songs in the car, dancing in the store being goofy lol. Plus my mother got a call from the lawyer & said her settlement check came in. & It just so happened, on this very night, when everything is good, something has to mess it up. It's not a coincidence. Every single time we're happy, something tries to break us down. But i won't allow it to happen.

Anyways, back to the hypochondria, is it true? Like im 16, I've seen a cardiologist, no health problems. I don't want to die or be in the hospital over an argument. Have i put too much strain on my heart? Also, any advice on how to let go & not dwell on this? On how to enjoy life?

Thank you for reading. God Bless

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I think you should move away as soon as you can. Hate saying this but too much negativity can be bad for anyone. You won't die, but depending the severity of your emotions, it might cause a mental breakdown. Your heart won't suffer, your heart is a strong muscle! You have not put any stress on your heart. Calm down. Breathe. And let the thoughts go. Don't argue with your mom, take care of you. Worry about you. Yeah I know it sounds very selfish, but honestly we can't control other people. They have to help themselves, as we have to help ourselves. Again... sounds very selfish I know. Might not be good advice, but that's how I get stress out of my mind.

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Haven't planned on moving out because im mom is literally the best mom i could ask for. She still provides for me & my two brothers even though they're 25 & 26. She'll take a bullet for us. She really loves & would do absolutely anything for us. Sometimes I think she does to much. We're spoiled lol. BUT, she just can't hold her alcohol sometimes. Like she can some today & didn't get drunk. I think it was because we were over a friends house lol. I probably have made the situation more exaggerated than it is, but I promise you she's really amazing. Just a few mistakes like everyone else does lol. I'm fine ❤