For two years I have been haunted, or emotionally distraught. I am a recovering addict of alcohol and other various drugs, alcohol two years, drugs almost 3 or 4. My fear is that I am going to have a seizure, I know it is just that, a fear. I know It is not going to happen, I am not epileptic, and I am no longer using. The fear is still there and will not go away, please help. I went to rehab for alcoholism, while I was there I witnessed a man have a gran mal seizure from alcohol withdrawl. what got me was that this man and I never talked much, but he walked passed me and stood next to me. on my left side, when it happened I did not know what to do and I backed away. I feel bad about doing that, i should have helped him. the staff insisted that we did not do anything after I walked away. ever since then I have had this fear that I am going to have a seizure. my grandma passed away shortly after I came home and I got really drunk with my cousin while we were at her home. then one morning on my way to work I felt strange, nervous, so much fear i called an ambulance and was taken to the hospital. I could not think, I believe it was panic. before any of this happened, I held my grandma during a gran mal seizure and I did not have the fear I am having now, but ever since rehab I have not been the same. it has been two or three years and I am still suffering the fear and thoughts that it is going to happen. I have seen doctors and counselors, have been on trintellix and latuda. I am still having these fears. what can I do, I pray and it goes away for a while, I know god protects me. is there a way that I can get out of this mind set or fear? please help. I apologise for the long post.
I can kind of relate to the fear you are having about seizures. I have never had one myself and do not have any underlying health issues, but over the past year I have had these weird tingling/pressure/rushed sensation in my head that almost always creep up when I am alone. Most of the time this feeling always makes me think i am going to have a seizure or stroke and the panic just manifests. It always seems to happen either when Im driving or working out or sitting in a meeting with a room full of people. I guess in a way it is a fear of not being able to control what i think maybe about to occur. I wish i could tell you what makes it all go away, but i havent mastered it myself yet. i have been to doctors and had mri’s which came back clear. Once you know it is anxiety and fear alone, thats half the battle. The next step is training your mind to accept the feeling as just that- a symptom of anxiety. Sometimes easier said than done. Let me know what you feel in your head physically when this fear of a seizure is about to happen? I am curious does a certain physical symptom occur setting off the fear alarm?