Fear

I had some exposures in my life. #1 october 29,2014 I had protected vaginal sex with a female csw.I also french kissed her.Later found the girl HIV +.After 5 weeks I experienced severe flue type illness.Swollen lymph nodes under jaw and neck,loose stool,hedeach,severe muscle and joint pain,rash on both arm. I have tested after 3 months with 3rd generation rapid test,after 5 months with 3rd generation elisa, after 6.5 months with 3rd generation rapid test.All are negative. 2# July 16 2017 I had protected oral and protected vaginal sex (max 15 seconds)with a female csw.Dont know why? Vaginal part only lasted 10-15 seconds.The girl seemed a consistent condom user.No real symptom between 1-4 weeks. Episode 3 # October 17 2017 I had protected vaginal sex with a csw.Condom was intact.She offered me to have sex without a condom for extra charge but I didn’t agree .But she assured me she gets tested every month. Now you are thinking whats the real problem.Actually Im experiencing the symptom of overt aids.Loosing weight,facial wasting,fatigue, dizziness ,swollen lymph nodes,loose stool,nail fungus,clubbing nail are making my life hell.I have been loosing weight before my 2nd exposure.Now I’m experiencing severe cognitive issues like foggy brain and poor memory.I’m from a developing country where HIV stigma is very deep.I feel like a jombi.Any help will be really appreciated. I posted in poz and medhelp forum.They said all of the 3 exposures were no risk event.

if reports are good then dont worry. sometime even things are not lioe .. but just anxiety makes us see that

leave all thoughts.. engage in something else

i think you are like me you are so scared of ya wrong doing that you think the worst of things. I suffer anxiety now and its gotten worse over there years. Try to calm down and if you can just get tested again. All the symptoms you could have been already having but because you are scared you are looking for them