I feel like I'm just posting and repeating the same things as everyone else and it makes me wonder why my body wont listen that it's just anxiety or its just depression im at breaking point with the stupif illness. It's just constant worries that im suddenly going to die, that I have some underlying illness that might just strike and ill die in my sleep or suddenly whilst out and about. If its not that im then worrying im going to start hallucinating or hearing voices become a schizophrenic and my life will be over. It changes between the two different days once I start getting used to the fact I might not die or I might not become severely ill. My meds have just been upped yesterday from 20mg citalopram to 40mg and im on 40mg propranolol. Im hoping I start to feel better soon. Sick of feeling so worthless and not enjoying anything at all. Counselling starts monday too which im also hoping will help. Is there light at the end of the tunnel? Life just seems so dull and dreary at the moment. I hate feeling so low.
Oh dear it's awful when you have all these thoughts. Let's hope counselling will help. I have really bad health anxiety. I think some of us are just worriers and cannot control it. It appears that once you have one anxiety under control, another one pops up. Hopefully your counsellor will come up with the underlying issue what started this all off, there is usually one. Do you hallucinate or hear voices or are you afraid this may happen to you. Take care. Let me know how you are getting on
Keep at it Liz. There is always light at the end of the tunnel, only you can help yourself. You need to be 100% motivated. Don't panic at all, its only anxiety thats causing these problems. Councelling will take a huge load off your mind, and they will be able to tell you where you can go from here.
You're not alone, theres so many understanding people out there.
Hi Liz,
Come on luv,you're not worthless at all,just bide this out,highs and lows,lows and highs,sometimes they last weeks,other times hours,you will not die,that's the depression bit the anxiety has kicked off,just trust in your meds,try to sleep well and eat sensibly,little and often,and find something to take your mind off this lot,it will lessen and you've got all our support and we all care,don't beat yourself up,let it take its course and you'll still be there,one day you will awaken to a new dawn,where the clouds hide from the sun and your life will blossom.I will do you a Tarot reading if you want,it may help,but take care,love yourself a little more and beat this thing,I don't let it rule me now,life is too short.
Bless you,I wish you well!
Regards Malc
Dear Liz, I answered one of your earlier messages saying that I hoped you would be feeling better by now. As I wrote then, I want to know that you are becoming a happy Liz - no more Loopy Liz. Hopefully the increased meds and counselling will help you to find peace, something we all need and want. Hang in there and try to think positive thoughts. If you've been to a doctor who has tested you for various illnesses and has given you a clean bill of health, dwell on that good news. And
don't let your mind run away with thoughts of going insane. Reassure yourself that that is not going to happen. You are not worthless Liz.; you're a good person. We're here for you as you would be for us. We all have our crosses.
please clear your mind of fear of mental disease.