I am going to try and explain the way i feel!
It is only in the last two years that i realised i suffer with depression!
For years i was drinking too much trying to self medicate! 5 years ago i gave up alcohol, yes i felt better but all these feelings of depression came along, and i had to deal with them head on!
I am 52 and have had a lot of things to deal with in life! and although i am strong dealing with these issues when they have passed i seem to crash!
I have managed to get out of bed today, not doing much but a t least i am up! I just have overwhelming feelings of guilt! Guilty that my husband has to earn all the money! My 21 year old daughter sees this and calls me lazy and why does dad have to earn all the money!!!! She will be going back to uni next week so i know things will improve then! My husband tries to understand depression! but has never suffered with any mental health problems, and doesn't agree with antidepressants! I'm just finding everyday life a struggle at the moment! I am managing to hold down a part time job, luckily my employer is understanding!
If anyone can help with feelings of guilt and how i can overcome them, i would be very grateful!
Hi I'm struggling to up until 5 weeks ago I was suffering with health anxiety but held a full time job since a 5 day migraine my anxiety on roof can't go to work and I feel do guilty for letting my boss and my family down I'm that bad I'm spending most of the day with my mum who had a breakdown so understands,I feel so sick from 4am but by 4pm feel a lot bette.Ive got no interest in doing anything anymore and dread each day tablets and tranquilisers not working so know how you feel
Hi welsh girl, aaah the guilt, it's another added dimension to our inner hell and you know what ? I don't know that there is anything that helps, especially from the " outside world " the only thing I try to say to myself is that I am ill and I wouldn't say to anyone with, say for instance, an insulin dependant diabetic, they don't need their injections daily or a kidney patient to stop having dialysis ! Give yourself a break and do whatever you need to do to get through it and if that's sleep, rest, meds, help then do it.
Hope you get what I'm saying as I'm not in a fab place myself at th mo but good luck xx
Hi Sarah, thanks for replying, hope you feel better soon!
Hi Crazycat! Yes i do get what you mean! We shouldn't be so hard on ourselves! And if we do rush things we never get better properly!
Hi Welsh girl I am sorry to hear of what you are going through. Why do you feel guilty? Is it your fault you have depression? Did you ask for it? Do you deseeve it? The answer is no. It is an illness like any other and needs treatment.
Have you been to your doctors and are you on any meds/counselling etc.? If not you need to go and get help.
If you had broken your leg would you feel guilty? No. You would get treatment wouldn't you? Try and see depression like this. Take care. Bev x
no need to feel guilty about what you have
i feel guilty for trying to put my son social care and selfish on my son when he needs me more then ever
Depression is a clinical mental illness and will not go away without medication. I am 51 and for years I tried to avoid antidepressents....but my Drs kept insisting.
I tried various antidepressents and didn't like the side effects. But, kept trying new ones. I finally got put on Celexa (Citalopram) about 5 years ago. It is amazing. Most people should start this at a small dose. I was given 20mg..but to start I cut the pills in half.
I had minor side effects (everyone is different)...slight headache....feeling like I had to poop and didn't poop....these passed in a week...I now take the whole 20mg.
My point is...YOU NEED medication to come out of this funk....medication brings back motiviation, patience and peace into your BRAIN.
Whether your husband agrees or not...you NEED the medication or you will not get better. He would be pleasently surprised...when you start feeling better....It is your body and your life...you need to do this for YOURSELF.
your brain is chemically imbalanced and it won't get better without treatment.
Hi Missy i am 52, and i have been taken clomipramine for 25 years reducing and increasing dose at various times! Last year doctors felt my antipressant was quite an old one, so tried me on a few others! They didnt work as clomipramine sorts my panic attacks and depression! At the moment i am taking 75mg!
I am also taking proprananol beta blockers 80mg as recently found out i have an overactive thyroid! They haven't given me drugs for thyroid yet as waiting to see what my bloods are like at the end of this month!
I do feel i am on the right antidepressant, i have had quite a lot to deal with over the years, and i seem to cope quite well at the time, then when things improve i seem to sink!
this thyroid problem has made me feel very strange, so tired, sweaty, thirsty, no energy at all, which doesn't help with depression!!!