Ive done years of research trying to figure out what the hell is wrong with me! Ive seen tons of Drs. been to the E.R countless times thinking i was dying or something was horribly wrong... from MRI's to cat scans, blood work you name it, i've done it...aaannd Nothing! everything comes back normal! I almost hope they find something just so I know there is an out to feeling like this!
This all started a little over 6 years ago after my mom died, I layed on the couch for 3 months straight damn near...didn't leave the house at all until i ended up relapsing because i couldnt deal anymore! I got clean after about 2 months but im telling you what since that time it seems like my symptoms go in waves from "I think its getting better" to Worse!
Drs never seem to be able to do crap for me..The only medication that helps somewhat during the worst of my symptoms is Xanax which i try not to take often because long term use can make it all worse 
Symptoms: (some are hard to describe)
I feel like my head is full of pressure, like my ears need to pop or something, i get headaches or weird tension quite often...dizziness, hate standing in lines because i feel like i might fall over..like im rocking...blurry vision, spots in my vision...I feel like im stoned but in a bad way...like i could black out at any minute, everything seems as if im in a dream...Driving is awful and when it seems derealization is at an all time high! or anytime im in a place like walmart or costco (big stores) seems like everything around me is going 1000 miles and hour which makes me want to stop what im doing and run...carrying on a conversation and having to focus and talk to someone has become a major stress because i lose all train of thought and everything in the rooms seems to look different like im frying on acid...its so bizzar! Does anyone else feel like this? There are probably more symptoms but those are the ones i can think of now... I am totally miserable, its been months since ive worked because everytime i get a job i end up quitting because its so hard to be around people!
My only thought at this point based off my own research is that I have agoraphobia and depersonalization but i seriously on the other hand still think the Drs are missing something! I just dont know anymore...all i know is it has completely f****d my whole life up!
Anyone have any thoughts or advise because if you're like me you feel completely alone in this!
-Chelsie
Hi Chelsie, you definitely have anxiety. Have you talked to a doctor about that? My symptoms started with weird head fog and tension and escalated to me not being able to be out in public or move. Your body is in fight or flight mode and you need to try to relax because reaching will make it worse. Unfortunately it’s really hard to relax when all these symptoms are happening. I have the depersonalization and I just deal with it now and let it pass. Sometimes you have to accept it. Are you on anything other than Xanax? You will feel better I promise!
Yes we've discussed anxiety! I've taken a couple different anti depressants etc but they either don't help or make it worse! I guess it's hard for me to accept that this is just me...feels,like there is no solution...I've talked to therapist too but problem never leaves! Tried CBD oil, propolis honey, ashwagandha, magnesium citrate...meditation, warm baths, classical music lol...I know its gotta be anxiety I guess it's just hard to accept that I have to live like this
Hmmm ..I see..very..very similar to my situation...
This is what's going on with me...
CANT BELIEVE ITS ANXIETY/DEPRESSION
Hi all...in the past 6 months I've been experiencing very severe anxiety and memory problems.. I feel so confused all of the time. It's like my thoughts are all confused and jumbled.
My concentration is terrible. I cannot follow a TV show, read a book, or have a coherent intelligent conversation because I just can't follow what's going on. I'm always having to ask people to repeat themselves because at times it sounds like they are speaking in some foreign language. On top of that when I go to respond my words either come out wrong, jumbled, or slurred. I also experience verbal recall issues. It's like my mind is blank and running in circles trying to recall the word I want to use. I am so used to being so articulate and having access to a vast vocabulary. This also happens while thinking. It's like I have a hard time recalling certain information, and once that happens I can't think of anything. The whole "lights on but nobodies home" scenario.
My memory is very delayed at times. It can take me awhile to recall information that I use to have no issues in recalling. An example of that would be a name of an actor that I am very familiar with, and for the life of me I just can't remember his/her name right away. This also will happen when trying to recall what I've done/eat in the previous days.
My biggest concern though is this constant state of confusion. This affects my ability to do everything. At times I feel completely lost and disoriented. I don't know what to do. I know there are things that need to be done but I just don't know how or where to start. Most of the time I feel confused in doing normal everyday things. Like how do I clean the car. .what are the steps? How do I get to this place? How do I parallel park? How do I hold the pen when I write? It just seems like everything I do is requires extra though when before it was just done automatically!!
I literally feel like im losing my mind. I'm tired of feeling confused and disoriented all of the time. I'm tired of not going able to have an intelligent conversation with someone because I can't understand what they are saying, and when I respond I sound like an idiot! Sorry if this post is incoherant..
I feel so off...I can't seem to stay in the moment and on task..so I just ramble..
Does any of this sound familiar to any of you? Any recommendations? Medication? Therapy? IS IT REALLY ANXIETY/ DEPRESSION....OR SOMETHING ELSE
See....very similar to your situation
Hi Chelsie I'm sorry for what you're going through. This whole year was ruined for me and I've had all the symptoms you are experiencing , come to find out it was from an antibiotic I took. This whole year I've felt like I'm not really in reality the "high" feeling , depressed, scared. It all started with heart palpitations. Dec 25 marks 1 year and it has gotten so much better. Just thought I'd share my story with you.
Hi Debb....if I may....what was the antibiotic you took ??
Assuming youve ruled everything out through visits to dr/hospital my only recommendation honestly is when you start to feel it coming on...which for me is the 2nd I leave the house...not to be afraid of it because if it is anxiety it can't hurt you! I just tell myself to breathe and remind myself over and over that the feeling can't hurt me! According to research if we've suffered multiple panic attacks we can develop depersonalization (DP) which they believe is parts of our brain shutting down from stress overload! Makes sence to me being that I'm always stressed out over this constantly double checking with myself how I feel...xanax is the only thing I've tried that works for me but I only take it if I absolutely can't break outta the funk! Have you read From Panic to Power by lucinda bassett? If not you should! Hope we all get through this ❤
Blurry vision, spots, falling over feeling, depersonalization etc are all common with anxiety and stress. I have had all of those plus many more for years and all tests are normal.
you are definitely not alone in feeling the way you do. Millions of other people go through the same thing including myself. Depersonalization can feel extremely weird. It’s your brain‘s way of trying to protect you from stress by shutting things out. I found that when I completely relax my mind with meditations for anxiety, the depersonalization diminished greatly or goes away. You have to be consistent in mind relaxation.
Stress can definitely cause those. You have had a major loss and it’s affected you deeply. Ever considered speaking to a counselor? These things are hard to go through alone and it really feels good to vent to someone in person who can help. It’s amazing the symptoms that stress and anxiety produce. But if you can learn to manage your stress, grief and anxiety you would have much better control over it all.
some support and guidance with a plan to manage stress would truly benefit you.
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Chelsie, this is anxiety depression. Pls go to see psychiatrist and get antidepressants. Long term xanax can make your agitation and anxiety goes up. Take SSRI instead. Do mindfulness mediation and listen to calming music at night. It took 10 months for me to come back to normal. God bless.
Peter
Omg Chelsie I feel for u I really do I have been this way now for 3 yrs and doctors keep telling me it’s anxiety and depression but I feel it’s so much more 😞 I also fear dementia with all the symptom s I ave , can I ask how is ur sleep? I cannot sleep at all x
They ( Drs) say its anxiety....and they give you some pills..
Honestly you sound like you are exactly in the position I was in. I know how hard it is. I got to a point where I couldn’t get out of bed. But I had to leave my job unfortunately.... I don’t know if you’ve tried Celexa but if you haven’t you should ask about it. The only thing is that antidepressants make it worse before it gets better... I’m on week 6 and I’m finally feeling more clear and functional. To be honest it was worth it to wait, I didn’t think I could do it but if you want to get better it’s worth it. I tried CBD oil that didn’t help me either. But maybe try medication one more time... it’s really hard at the beginning but it may help.
I have no problems sleeping....my complaint would be that I wake up never feeling rested...zombie like
I have felt the same way for 6 months. Hit me hard within about a weeks time. I do have anxiety as well and now my depression is at an all time high because I basically can’t function. It’s so frustrating. I’ve been to many doctors and had tons of blood work. They say I’m “healthy” but I know I’m not. It sucks i don’t know what I did to deserve this. We have to stay strong but I’d be lying if I said it was easy.
I am sorry you are going through this. It must be very difficult for you.
Were you ever able to get some counseling after your mother passed? Grieving can be very difficult alone and it can take a long time.
Your symptoms can definitely be related to what happened six years ago. Doctors cannot find anything wrong because physically you are fine but emotionally you are still grieving and suffering.
is there anyway you can get some counseling for this? It always helps to vent to somebody else who can help you manage this.
Do you take time out for yourself to do things that you enjoy?
it’s time to begin taking care of yourself because you deserve that. You have suffered enough.
When I am really stressed out I also once in a while have the driving Derealization. What happens when you drive? I’m just wondering if anybody else experiences the same thing as I do when driving.
I hope you start to feel better soon 🌸
I won't go into huge thing but cut out dairy and gluten for two weeks, our bodies feed whatever we put in it.. only makes sense.
I did the same and it’s made a massive difference.
Hi, how you feeling now any better? I’ve been feeling the same on and off for 10 months and like you find it hard to accept it’s anxiety/depression.. all the checks I’ve had I was kind of hoping they would find something to explain it all but no such luck either, one thing that has helped myself in a big way is a book called Dare.. written by a guy who suffered with panic attacks and anxiety it’s def worth a look at as this has been the only thing that’s helped with all the physical symptoms.. hope your feeling better
Listen to the above because three times is a charm. I went on a Keto diet. Changed a lot and made a big difference. Enough that I can challenge myself more since I became Agoraphobic two years ago. I notice a difference after only one week on keto. But keto is way too strict for me to follow so I added things back in. Gluten product is the devil for me. No bread or noodles. I am fine on dairy but not on wheat products and such. Eat fruit but do not drink juices, way too much sugar in juice. Unfortulanlty it is next to impossible for me to stay on this diet because somebody else is buying the food since I became agoraphobic. So I end up eating pasta again and feeling horrible.