Feel like I'm at a dead end!!

Mental health
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HI, have had depression on and off for 21 years and in the past year or so anxiety has crept up on me too! On Monday I had a bad episode where I felt that my son was annoyed at me for not going to work so I took myself to doctors to speak to someone asap as didn't c the point in carrying on anymore as I feel that my son is the last person that cares as everyone else has left me! An emergency referral was put in place!

So I have just come back from having an assessment with a psychologist and I just don't feel it was worth it! The time allowed and the questions they asked didn't allow for me to get all my thoughts and feelings across and I feel there is so much more that they need to know to be able to point me in the right direction of the right services! At the end of the assessment I was told that I will here from them next Monday. There may be some sort of therapy put in place but not for certain but will definitely be some forms of medication! Y DOES IT ALWAYS REVERT BACK TO TABLETS?? After 3 failed suicide attempts over 21 years is that the only option to help me along my way?

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To answer your question, yes, I believe that's all the system has to offer. Tablets and therapy, and the rest is up to us. Really sucks as far as I'm concerned. Because what if it doesn't work? I'm not a psychologist! Where does it leave us? Anyway, hang in there, and I'm very sorry you're going through all this. I'm at a dead end as well. Just one day at a time, as they say. 

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So sorry . At work so can't say much. Had to reply . You sound so down. Appointments are awful , I can't tell them all my stuff in ten minutes , come home feelingvworse. Talkbhere. People are actually going through same and understand and best of all have empathy. Here. A lot so talk again. Sorry so short.❤️