why is it that still without anxiety I'm convinced that I'm going to die soon?
I developed an immense fear if death a month ago and dealt with a crap load of panic attacks and generalized anxiety, but now the anxiety has faded away (I'm still somewhat terrified of death, I don't know I just feel numb now) and I still feel like I'm going to die soon.
my sister's will be planning something and they'll ask me for suggestion and in my mind I'll just go "you guys do it I won't be around any way"
my mother will call me over when I'm talking to a friend and my mind will say "just let me be let me talk to them I'll be gone in a while anyway"
WHAT is this? is this still anxiety? does anyone have similar experiences? even a story will help so much
ps. im 17
I have a similar fear and I catch myself doing the same, you're not alone.
It seems like you have more of a phobia of death then anxiety, and it is probably the phobia that causes anxiety for you? I highly suggest seeing a therapist. I do and it helps a lot! They can really help you rationalize your fears and kinda make them look silly and less scary. That will help you overcome it.
Also, I wonder where this fear of yours came from. Did someone pass that was close to you? That happened to me, I lost a family member suddenly without warning, and now I constantly fear dying. The therapist can help you break down this part too and figure out what is causing your phobia in the first place.
Try using the Psychology Today website, that's what I used. You can search therapists near by you and also break it down by specialization and accepted insurance.
thankyou so much for replying!
I think I can lay down a trail for how this phobia developed, but I can't be sure about it
about 5/6 months ago I got my first panic attack, I didn't know what it was at the time and thought that I was actually dying
this was probably the first time I'd ever realized that I was going to die at some point
I was fine for a while after that and then there were more panic attacks (less severe though) about death
this faded a little but then there was 2 weeks worth of derealization, which again I didn't know what it was and constantly feared that I was dying or would die soon because of how lost I felt
I lost my grandmother to cancer soon after
and it's been worse since then
I really do want to see a therapist but I don't think I'll be able to for a while and just want to remain sane till then
again, thankyou for replying it really helped
I know exactly how you feel but even just thinking like that can still be anxiety I have a big fear of death I think about it everyday! I’ve been feeling like this for 2/3 months now and I’ve finally got an appointment to see my gp today because there’s days where I sit there and say to myself oh I’m going to die in a month or I won’t go to events or anything or on holiday because I’ll tell myself I’m going to die that day
If you can't see a therapist at the moment, try reading this book "Anxiety & Phobia Workshop (sixth edition)". I'm reading it now, it's very helpful! It really dives deeply into anxiety and phobias, it explains them scientifically and also mentally and then it teaches you ways to cope also. I'm finding it really interesting and helpful so far.
the same thing happens with me! I'm currently giving my exams and throughout April I was fully convinced I would never get to
i will be able to see a therapist in the second week of June and I have to convince myself that I'll be around till then
this thing is literally on my mind 24/7 and I absolutely hate it
I hope we all are able to get through this
and I hope your gp appointment went well!
I'll look for it, thankyou so much!