Been on flu for about 10 weeks,my doctor upped my dose to 40mg ten days ago.went to a party on friday and got really drunk,felt like it did me the world of good to let my hair down,but since yesterday i've felt really down.Something silly happened at work,but every little thing seems to feel like the end of the world to me,so difficult to cope with any stess.If someone doesnt say hi to me or reply to a text i've sent i feel that they've got the hump with me,just feel so paranoid.
went to work today knowing it was going to be a bad day,and was only there an hour before i had to leave.Everybody knows i'm depressed but they must think i'm losing the plot,i worry that i've blown my chance at work and that i'll never get a promotion now.management have been supportive up to now,but for how much longer.
Try as best you can not to panic, you AREN'T going mad. I feel pretty much the same and its \"normal\" so im understand.
Ive been on Flu for 18 wks and stayed on 20mgs so far but i am constantly paranoid - if i dont get a reply to a text straight away i think the person is annoyed with me, if someone doesnt return my call quickly i want to know why, and if a work mate doesnt respond to my email as quickly as I do i think its because im ive done something wrong.
This has been my life for months and im slowly getting used to it. Work is the worst as i often over hear my boss talking and get worried he is talking about me and immediately i panic that im about the get fired/let go (im only a contractor). I work my arse off but still worry im doing everything wrong.....its all part of the condition and the effects of the flu.
My suggestion to you would be to try and find a book on CBT if you havent already. Cognitive Behaviour Therapy helps you think about you thoughts and rationalise them, its really good stuff and has helped me right out. Alternatively get some CBT from a local therapist if at all possible.