I've just had my first counselling session and I opened up a lot to the guy who was giving the initial assessment. Since that today has been up and down, but mostly down. I've felt very nervous and restricted. Now I'm home, I find that I feel like stone. The scariest thing is that I feel completely numb when I look at my boyfriend, anxious even. There's nothing there. It's like I don't want to be around him and he's somebody that I don't really know very well.
I've had this but in a very, very less dramatic way. I've never, ever felt so stone when I'm speaking to him. It's making me super worried that I'm falling out of love; that by speaking about my feelings today I'm unearthing deep fears which I may have lived in ignorance with before. Is this common?? I'm so worried, he's so kind and lovely to me and I just feel like I'm not appreciating any of it right now