I've only gone through depression once before in my life when I had a miscarriage, and it lasted 2mths. I hate waking up feeling like everything is flat, I hate that I've put on 3kg in a couple of months, I hate the way I constantly feel hungry - when normally when I feel bad - I can't eat, I hate feeling like a tired old woman all the time - after doing a small bit of housework I need to lay down, I hate being on sick leave from work as it makes me feel completely disfunctional, I can't stand feeling irritable all the time as if its 'that time of the month', I find it hard to be around my wonderful 3 small kids and don't know what to do with that thought as they are my light and fill my heart, the increase in tinnitis is driving me nuts but I've read its linked to depression so what to do with that?!, my face is covered in acne even though I've never had many spots even as a teen (stopped levo for approx 6 days and all spots cleared after 2 days), I realllllllllllly hate that my dr only listens if I ask questions as if I don't know anything and responds better if he feels he has all the knowledge, I even more hate that my endo pushes me to ask my questions but then shuts me down with responses like 'the adrenal system is not connected to the thyroid', and the worst is that I blame levo but it may be the hypothyroidism. This sucks. And talking about it makes me feel even more disfunctional because nobody understands.
What can I do? The only thing I can think of at this point in time is to ask my dr to change me to levo drops (I'm told there is no other treatment here besides Liothyronine which would be harder on my heart - my heart is fine but levo is creating havoc with it) - at least the levo drops I could adjust more easily than chopping pills.
What
can
I
do?