This might be similar to my last post but I need someone to talk to, I have upped my dose on citalopram from 10mg to 20mg I am 2 weeks in and I feel more depressed now than ive ever felt. I am crying a lot and having a lot of bad days. Is this normal when upping a dose ? Feel so hopeless
Hi Elle are the symptoms that you speak about new crying a lot feeling more depressed and having more bad days from upping you AD from 10 to 20 mg? Diane
I don't know whether I can be of any help. I have been depressed (or worse) for many many years. Decades. All I can say is that sometimes we fall in love with our misery. Every time we believe we can be free, somehow we jump back into the cesspool, the darkness, the discomfort all the more.
I'm not sure about citalopram. Drugs never really helped me. They just made me feel stupid. I'm not a pretty man. I'm not a giant. I'm not the guy that others stand on to be great. I'm just here. All I have are my wits, and having them dulled made me feel worse than miserable. So I stopped taking them.
Don't fall in love, or in hate, with your depression. You aren't powerless. Think on this: at least you aren't where I am. I am numb and emotionless. Better to be sad, angry, angsty, furious, hateful, lonely. Better to feel anything at all. Hold onto that. Right now you are looking up out of the well. Don't stop.
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