So I went to my doctor this morning to get my prescription for my daily medication and I haven't stopped crying since. i was doing so much better and now i feel hopeless all over again. I have also been avoiding all of my friends. I'm just so embarrassed. This guy i have been interested in for a while now (we just have a lot of history and I was hoping to rekindle things before I contracted herpes) has been calling me every day. He just wants to see me and I can't bring myself to hang out. I don't want to tell anyone about this. Idk I'm just sad. I miss my life and I'll never get it back
UR having trouble thinking u have difficulty blending in .its not that way at all UR friends don't all need to know or any for that matter. I never told my family because of the stigma society has on these issues. I hope within time u can find what right for u.
Even at 60 I too feel alone sometime but I jump right out knowing I'm the one with the disease I have a long way to go and this is not going to define who I am.
Sweetheart it can be and is very upsetting its as they say a gift that keeps on giving which would inferiate me every time someone said that. But if UR careful only u and u partner ever need to know. It's private and I keep it that way.
Everyone handles difficulties in their lives differently I found that if I don't talk to others about it then when I see them I don't think about it and soon I forget about it.. Time really is UR best friend here besides me of course, hehe...there is a beautiful light at the end of the tunnel.
{gentle hugs}
HOPE
its very sad the way you are feeling i have read so many sad stories, i myself do not have Herpes....... and it makes me cry reading how many of you feel lonely and so sad.
I have been with my partner over 2 years and it was only 3 weeks ago he opened up to me, we dont really argue but our time together i found when we did it was over nothing we so i thought to me it was, well, he told me how he got it why he took up meditation and why he lived in the bush for so long, it took him almost an hour to get it out once he decided he was going to tell me, he kept saying he will move out and leave if that what i want but he also kept saying i promise its something i can controll and it wont affect you i kept asking him is it this is it that but i never guessed what it was ,it just came out of the blue i never exspected him to have any secrets at all, when he told me I was pretty angry he never told me before he said it was because the last partner he told she started to hit him and screaming at him and kicked him out.......( i told him well she wasnt worth staying with then, he was in the wrong for not telling her and me but he controled it so he did not see a problem, he did not want to go advertise it and as he controlled it he never seen there was a problem, so what do you do ??? do you tell every man or woman you meet and they maybe walk away from you or do you tell them from the start??? i cant answer that to be honest because it does not bother me one bit, if i love the person i am with then i will stick by that person, he controlls it and has only had 2 outbreaks in the time he has been with me and i was totally unaware of it. i never yelled at him or anything like that but put my arms around him and said its ok im not bothered darling and laughed he was in a cold sweat and grey looking and told me that that would answer alot of questions of why he sometimes was like he was. there is nothing wrong with our sex life and i think it has improved since he told me as he is more relaxed that i know.
I do not know what to advise you to be honest but just be happy with yourself and what will be will be, love yourself and dont think about it just take whatever you have to take to controll it and enjoy your life, people have it on there faces and it can be seen and touched all the time that spreads worse in my opinion. its not a death sentance and i would guess that there are more people than you think out there that have it. people csan be ignorant so if you cross them then you dont need them i your life anyway
good luck be strong xxx
Hi Donna, I appreciate you telling your story. It lightened my mood a little. I get that I'll probably find someone who will accept me for what I now am but right now the news is still fresh and I just can't get over it. I need to focus on myself right now anyways. I need to come to terms with this. If not I can't expect anyone else to. Idk I'm just sad. I feel like my life is over, even though I know it's not. I can't help it. I'm so young and I just suck ya know? I wish I was more careful. I wasn't though and I need to find a way to get over it. Eventually I will but right now I can't. Idk how. I'm alone in this(other than the wonderful people in this forum of course, but I have no one to just hold me and tell me it will be ok) so right now I guess I'll be a hermit
please dont be down you are a strong person, it can happen things happen and its no always about being more careful, take my situation, my partner was 25 when this happened to him he went to his room drunk one night and there was a girl there he cant even remember but his mates apparently warned him the next day about her and that it was common knowledge about her sad i know but it life.
I wish i could give you a cuddle but ill send you good vibes that you will be ok i promise think possative, if you feel to low please see someone, but honestly its not so bad, think possative eat healthy and feel good about yourself xxx
BRI.. Everyone has their own way of dealing with the grief the diagnosis brings.. If ue need to grieve take UR time to work tru it.. Then u will start out again a little different and a little wiser.
Donna how sweet.. UR vey kind and it goes a long way.
i see u have pip UR a lot of effort in all UR postings I am sure BRI really appreciates UR replies.
And many others as well.. THANKX for sharing...
I am a strong person, I've been through worse, it's just been one of those days. I've known for a week now and I've gone through a roller coaster of emotions and I just have some bad days and today was just a bad day. This is probably going to make me a better person anyways. Healthier I mean. Right now my diet consists of McDonald's and any other fast food joint you can think of. It's just cheap and works with my schedule. I work 7p to 7am at a nursing home. But anyways I guess it's just a wake up call. Now I'll eat better and make better decisions as to who I sleep with. Not that that is going to be my choice. I'm not really prepared for rejection but like I said I need to focus on me first. I need to find my happiness. I hate being so sad. It's just hard to come to terms with. I'll make it though. Thanks for your advice and for your vibes, it helped.
BRI.. my nephew was a nurse and he of all people got AIDS...he would always say how it hits all socio economical .....from gardeners to CEO's..
luv u {{{ hugs}}}}