Its great to hear you are feeling better. It takes a while to get there but its great when you do.
I still get panic attacks. I never realised over the years what it was and now I can put a name to it I can handle it better.
I still feel paronoid at times and feel like people are fed up with me and they are telking about me but then I think I don't care cause these people don't know what I've been through in my life and they are nothing to me.
I've learnt how to talk to my mum to ask her certain questions without upsetting her.
I feel like I'm getting there and this time next year I'll be \"normal\" whatever that is.
Thats good that you can cope with the feelings that people are talking about you - I feel like that too, but at the moment it still bothers me. I'm only a few days into taking the med and hoping it will help me feel more confident in myself.
I find it interesting that you say you have found a way to communicate better with your mum. I also have major issues communicating with mine. Rather than being a strength or support, she just gets upset at how things are affecting her.I just avoid talking about anything too controversial, but I'd like to find a way of having a more honest and open relationship with her without fearing she will cut me out of the family again.
I've learnt not to say things like \"why did you blah blah blah\" and try to say thing like When this happened it made me feel/do and I don't want that to happen again\".
Hope that make sense.
My mum never know to the full extent what I was going through I just shut her out of what was going on.
She never knew about the mad things I did.
I feel so ashamed about how I've acted and about the people I've hurt but I can't change the past.
I know who have stood by me and they are the people I stand by.
I am feeling more rational in thought. mrs J , I too find it so difficult to be open and up front with my mum....lots of thing have happened...which have made me run away from my own probs, just shoving undera filthy rug, or something, but I worry and I am v worried about her, esp just now! She is going into hosp soon, and I am so scared that I will go off the rails again, esp if my partner shows me no support!!
Anyway, it is good to be able to take a deep breath and get on with things! Going to revamp my CV...I wonder how many As I should put.....only joking!!!I will not lie!! Although seriously thnking it may help. Keep in touch. Take care, Katy
Hi there, another strange day. People seem to be looking at me like I am on somesort of illegal drug or something...and im not and I never have and never would take illegal drugs(just lqoads of legal ones!!!!..so f ...off you weirdoos!!!!!
Managed to take children to swing park..we had a good time!! Good sign that I made an effort though, that I am starting to really enjoy them again! Still have not got a clue what I am doing with my life! But found a big bop it toy in the street, but batteries are stuck inside...I cant get them out!!!! Then children and I went and bought some juice...vile stuff...sugar free diet coke with (get thi!s) HEALTHY (HMM?????? never mind the sacharin...or wharever) VITAMINS AND MINERALS....what next!!!! Obviously, I am not the only dippet muppet on this planet, dont ever get that stuff its realYUCK!!!!Might use it tio clean the toilet or something!!!!!
Me, my sister and my dad, all have the same problem...its mad....must be genetic, or something!!!!!