Hi all, I haven't posted on here for a while, but today I'm feeling very depressed. I've been on Pregabalin for a few years, and until recently was aware of the slight euphoric effect it had. I've also been on double dose of Prozac for a number of years. (I have had clinical depression for longer than I've had fibro). But lately I've been thinking about death and dying, and close family members dying, and my own death. I don't know where this preoccupation has come from, except that my brother in law died in August. My pain level is quite low at the moment but the fatigue is awful. I don't feel like doing anything or going anywhere. Can anyone out there make me feel better? x
I lost my mother in January to cancer and it still not sunk in has there is arguing in the family about her estate and that. I know how you feel about thoughts of dying and family members to dying. I have a rough few years my depression started when I had my children but I hit rock bottom when my grandson died at 22 days old. We have to take it one day at a time if you feel you need to see your docter go has you need a little more help with this maybe talk it through with someone but look after yourself hugs to you ☺
Jeanne 81532,
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Hi jeanne81532,
Hey sounds like your having a Bruno Mars day !
Get the ice cream out or make yourself a hot chocolate put on your favourite movie and put your feet up. Sometimes a little break from the norm can help divert your thoughts.
We've all been so we know and understand your situation.
Take care KS
Hi Jeanne, I understand how you're feeling because I'm in the same dark place. My fibromyalgia is bad and earlier in the year I was hospitalised with pneumonia which was very scarey. I now have restless leg syndrome which is driving me to distraction.
We need to stay strong and know that there are people thinking of us and there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
Take care xx
Hi Mandy, thanks for your reply. So sorry to hear about your mothers death, and the arguing over her estate. And also your grandson dying. That must have been awful. I'm sure I will feel better again; from past experience, it's just that I haven't felt so low in a long time. Hugs to you too. x
Thanks Kevin, maybe I'll try that. x
Thanks Heather, yes just knowing others on here have been, or are going through the same dark place, and understand how I'm feeling, helps. Hugs to you. x
Hi! I don't think that what you're thinking about is entirely uncommon. I know I spent a good few months after the loss of each of my grandparents with my mind also preoccupied about death and dying whether it was about myself or other people. Eventually I came out of it. I guess the worry would be if it goes on for too long and at the moment your brother in laws death in august is still quite fresh. See how you go over the next month.
Sometimes when our minds are preoccupied with things it's good to focus on things that can help bring you back into the present and what is going on around you at that moment. Even simple things like listening to the birds singing can just get your brain out of a preoccupied moment. That's what I've used when I've dealt with anxiety or my 'morbid thoughts'.
Have you tried walking? Perhaps go for a gentle walk, walk around the block, just get walking, maybe get a walking buddy It's good for depression and gentle enough for fibromyalgia sufferers.
My daughter is 14 and has been diagnosed with fibromyalgia and I've suffered with bouts of M.E.
We walk together, it helps a lot
Hi Jeanne - I can totally relate to how vulnerable you feel after losing a loved one.
I lost my son in 2005 and I really never recovered. I never thought in a million years it could happen to me and certainly never thought I would be pre-deceased by one of my kids. It didn't seem fair.
I think the recent loss of your brother in law has flared up some anxiety as well as depression and you need to work through it. Easier said than done of course, but you have to think about the many good things in this life you have and how they build your zest for life. I think it's important to keep busy and find things that keep the mind not only busy but stimulated. The mind is a very powerful tool as we both know. It can play many tricks on you, some not so nice.
For me, I try to live as much of my life around music. Music entertains all modds and you can program it to the mood you're in. Relaxing music aids my fibromyalgia and tinnitus much more effectively than anything upbeat or just a lot of noise. God only knows, I have enough going in both ears. lol. Try some good music and don't be afraid to unwind with some good headphones and just chill. Music has a way of lifting you up and putting you in a place in your life when things may have been a little easier, or a whole lot easier. I often reflect back in my life and term that period, "when life was much easier.." referring to the days when I wasn't stressed and I wasn't suffering a loss that was so difficult to get over.
Often times when I'm having a real bad day, I'll think of just how many people are far worst off than I am and give myself a reality check. It puts things in perspective.
Certainily not a doctor but it appears you haven't found the right med to help you, at least on a consistent basis. You might want to relay to your doctor what you're feeling today and maybe find something that works more effectively.
Hang in there and realize how precious your life is. I think we often think of our own mortality but we shouldn't get pre-occupied with it. The fact of the matter is, when we do pass through this life, we will never know it's over. We can't control when we go but we can certainly control how we go. In the event that you really feel out of control, take a long walk and unwind. Exercise really helps homogenize the brain process. Call a friend or a call a 24 support help line and get things off your chest. There are many people that listen. People even on this board are standing up and helping you with their kind words and expressions.
Three cheers to life, Jeanne.. Honestly, it's better than the alternative and there's so much out there to appreciate and explore. Feel better and make today the first day of the rest of your life.
Glenn
Aah Glenn, your post has lifted me up already. I'm so sorry to hear of the loss of your son. As you say, we don't expect our children to predecease us. Thank you so much for your kind and caring words. x
Hi Melanie, thanks for your post. You say a lot of sensible things! Unfortunately I'm unable to walk more than a few metres without pain, but I do miss being outside. I have thought about getting a mobility scooter. Hearing birds singing is one of my small pleasures. Thank you for your kind and caring words. x
Oh dear Jeanne
I have been like this since I was 16 on going battle
But I will tell you now privacy are awful they made me feel anxious with a foreboding since of doom
I came off them a long while ago but was still very depressed
I was put on citalapram and after 2 weeks all the crying had stopped I went back to docs and said I could of hugged him
I didn't have side effects they don't make you drowsy just the first week of taking them had this urge to yawn all the time but not tired
I now take 40 mg don't get too depressed just sometimes like waiting for pip decision
Honestly they are really good I know others who are on them and they say the same
You just notice one day that the depression is not bad
You still can get down like anyone else but you want feeling like killing yourself thoughts
Also I can't take pregablin gabapentin or amatryptalin because they make me go very low in mood
Last week my doc tried me back on amatryptalin for mot sleeping but I had too stop them because changed my mood
Saw doc yesterday he said he could not understand why Because there also am antidepressant but if you read up on these tablets a lot of people feel the same way xxx
I am so sorry to hear of your loss
I lost my dad at end of Feb then a best friend from school who I had know since infants she left 2 young children
Its made me think of death and mortality
But please listen too me
If you feel like this today another can be so much nicer
Please please go see doc urgent ask them to try switching tablets about
I don't really go anywhere been feeling like everything is a chore
To even speak to people face to face
But I know I have to try and help myself
Let me know what doc says but ask for an emergency appointment
You can also go to talking sessions
They help by looking at what you can achieve in a day to learn to try not put too much pressure on yourself and to accept that you can't always do everything
Its like taking baby steps but trying to put 1 thing extra in your day
And when you achieve that it puts you in a better mood because you have managed to do maybe one extra thing in a day
I know what your going through and if you want private message me any time day or night xxxx
Thank you Sharon. I won't go to my GP just yet. As I say, I've been on Prozac for many years, and have been unable to come off them, even weaning off slowly. They seem to suit me. Also the Pregabalin as I say, had a euphoric effect for a long time and despite the pain and having to stop working as a nurse, I actually felt really good! Maybe it's because I had to give up working altogether a couple of years ago, and I'm only now feeling the effect of that. I don't know, but I'll see how I go over the next few weeks. Thank you so much for saying I can PM you any time. That's so kind and caring. x
hi there, sorry to hear your feelign so down. I had trouble with fatigue before I found out I had fibro and it made living my everyday life difficult. I put myself on a stricter sleeping schedule to ensure i got enough sleep, and started practising yoga right before bed to help me relax and it seemed to really help. Hope you feel better soon.
Thanks Tyler x
Hi.
Depression is a sad side effect of long term illness.
I am so sorry to learn of your brother-in-law's recent death. And yes, his death puts the entire death discussion front and center. That is a very natural reaction especially when a family member dies. Grief must run it's course but the length of time in each stage of grief varies from person to person.
If your thoughts become harmful, it is time to be up front with your physician. Perhaps a change in medication is in order. Rarely does one medication be effective for forever.
Kind regards,
judith
Hi Judith, thank you for your reply. I don't have any thoughts of harming myself; I just hate feeling so low. I will see how I go over the next couple of weeks, and will definitely see my GP if I don't feel any better. x
Janine, what's the other name Pregabalin is known by as I'm sure I was on that:- I'm just having fibro moment and can't remember it's other name..
Lyrica