Feeling down

I went to the doctor last Thursday because I had been feeling very irritated down there so I went to two clinics as a walk in n couldn't get seen, so the last one I went to made me an appointment to cum n the next day which was tht Thursday. So wen I got called to the bck n the nurse took all my vitals n then we went inside of the room where I proceeded to tell her my systems, after tht the nurse practitioner came n and I told her the same as I had told the nurse it just felt like sumthing had been rubbing against me n it was irritated n wen I urine it jus burns n tht one spot so she looked at me n told me it was GH I was so heartbroken I couldn't do anything but cry I was n still is a little destroyed. I'm trying to find ways to cope with this but every time I think about it I start to cry but I do have a lot of support behind me but I'm still waiting on my results I'm hoping for the best but preparing for the worst. I'm still n a lil disbelief about it because wat she's seen I dnt see I jus see one blister I had no little red bumps r anything I am taking the meds 4 times a day n I had sum cream but it all gone but I feel like it didn't do any good.

Nobody can diagnose you w just a visual diagnosis and if that's what she did, she is dead wrong.

Did she swab you?

Well hun, herpes does present in everyone differently. Very rarely is anyone the text book symptoms we read online. I've seem girls have just a red raw patch and shockingly it come back positive for herpes.

Everyone feels devastated when they first are diagnosed, but I promise this will pass. As each day passes, the closer to acceptance you will come to. Hang in there, take deep breaths and wait for your results. Your world is not over if this is herpes. I have 7 people I know personally who have herpes before I ever got it. They are all married w kids except for one and they were w negative partners. They all delivered multiple babies vaginally w healthy babies.

Google H Opportunity and make an account. It's kinda like social nwtiwkrinf for those of us w H for all the support, down to disclosure videos, success as stories, etc. I think you will find great relief there if you do end up having this. Keep your head up, others better . 💜

Thank u for the kind words tht really made me feel a whole lot better.

Yes she swab me n took blood after the fact she looked at me n told me was GH but wen she asked me did I take a mirror and look down there I told her yes because I had my mom to look for n take a pic.

But never did I see wat she was telling me she seen, now I'm dealing with this with my boyfriend he's acting like he's ok with it but he may have a different reaction if the results cum bck n it's positive.

I'm trying to cope wit it the best way I kno how by not thinking about it n jus going on wit my everyday life n taking my meds, but my only thing is it's jus not adding up n my head because I have 4 kids n been tested for this numerous of times n I never once have had a positive herpes test cum bck.

So now I dnt kno wat to think becuz my boyfriend keep saying he haven't been wit anybody n I kno definitely I haven't so I'm trying to figure where did this all of sudden pop up from n we been together almost a year nxt month.

I'm not saying this is the case, but I've seenany situations where the guy knew he had it and didn't tell his partner or he was clueless to being a carrier, since over 80% are asymptomatic. He likely has it and there's also a chance you got it from oral sex. That's 50% of the new genital herpes cases, come from oral sex. Have him go get tested..