A little while ago I met someone really amazing though this site.
I've met some wonderful people here absolutely amazing.
All my life it's been my belief that love was a fantasy something we convinced ourselves exsisted in order to feel wanted secure and needed.
Until I met this lady I'd of laughed in the face of those that had claimed to have loved.
I'd of gone to statistics of finding a soul mate and compared it to the figures of people on earth weighed up the chances of you coming across that person when considered all the other factors i.e. They would have to be single etc jawing the same site as you at the same time or whatever it would be college school work etc
Until I met peace ironically she chose that name like a damn billboard what is anyone ever looking for in there life's but peace lol
Tonight peace is in hospital after a heart attack and I'm torn apart with worry I love this woman so blooming much I can't explain it
I'm scared to hell because I just met her everything always goes to crap I pray to god if there's such a thing she is going to be ok.
We don't get on me and god I seem to be the victim of his torment like giving me something and then snatching it back but know this if he takes this from me now he better we'll keep me right here because he won't be safe in his own house
I will take his gate keeper and shove him so far up his ass you won't know where one ends and the other begins
Hi and sorry to read of Peace's heart attack. There isn't any god out to get you. Life is messy and we usually don't get what we want. Expecting someone else to complete you is a recipe for disaster. My attitude is that we are to learn about ourselves, that we agreed to all and everything before we entered this life, that the elements we don't like are what requires our attention, and that - no matter what - everything will be alright in the end. This life is just this life - it's not the sum of you. Hope Peace recovers well.
Is this Peace23382?, do give her my regards when you visit her. I didnt know she also had heart problems though I guess with the constant stress we have, its more likely than average.
As for God, I find myself wanting to feel the same, but know the devil is the god of the world at present, and he is the one that does bad things to us in the knowledge that he can get us to blame and hate God for them.
Hi peter thankyou and I will
I'm not to sure on the theory of the devil being at work may I be as bold as to invite you to read the book of job in the Old Testament it's a real wolf in sheeps clothing story
Ah!, so you do know, and you know how God made it up to Job afterwards. I have read it many times and it does help me resist blaming God, though I find my lot in life make it difficult to be friends with him, even though there was a time in my life that I really tried and things became a lot worst. If you read the New Testament you will learn how it is the devil who runs the world until Jesus returns.
Hi peter
Yes I've read the New Testament too, although as it suggests there is a very different God in each one suggests eye for and eye and the other turn the other cheek
I'm huge on over thinking things looking for explainations I have a theory on this this is what I believe please tell me if you agree
I believe the New Testament was written to accommodate the social legal system we currently live by for instance we can't seem to be taking the law into our own hands etc the courts system in some buzzard way of understanding have chosen to use the good book to swear upon under oath so you see it's word be very much hypocritical of them not to have the New Testament and prosecute anyone that took an eye for an eye they couldn't justify it
I believe they recently stopped useing the good book as a stance or base guide due to the statements of judgement again the legal system found them selves totally contradicting the book as they them selves were judging
In addition if we look at the law of the land they very much coincide with the Ten Commandments infact most of the standards set by society indeed are based upon these commandments
I find it totally mind boggling how in one hand we have a god that is very much rains of locus and such real wrath of god and the other we have a very forgiving god
We only need to look at the Adam and Eve story to confirm gods ability to harbour a grudge as man still 4000 years on lives of the land at his on hand and efforts and woman still feel pain whilst in childbirth Jesus died for our sins was in vain? That sin was a long time ago and yet we are still held accountable
Yet the New Testament says we have an all forgiving god and once we repent we are forgiven
You see my dilemma??
"The law is a tutor leading to the Christ", is a scripture. athe devils original lie was that man can be like God, knowing good and bad, whereas in reality, we do not have Gods moral strenght to resist bad. The law given to the Hebrews was a way of demonstrating that even when man was told what to do, how to be good to earn his salvation, even then he was unable to do it therefore proving the devil was wrong to say man can be like God, knowing good and bad. Once the issue had been demonstrated via the jews, they were then used to usher in Gods salvation plan that totally relied on Gods love 100% after the actions of the Old Testament demonstrating we cannot save ourselves even when told how to.
So the old testament hides Gods mercy and also shows how powerful and dangerous he is if you are not on his side, Jesus is then given to us as a filter to our uncleaness so that this God can then show his mercy.
At the end of times, just before Gods Kingdom and rulership returns, you will see the God of the Old Testament act in the same way against all of those who didnt want to accept his free gift of the Christ and salvation.
Also, we are held accountable because none of us should have been born, Adam sinned and was told he would die in that day before he had any children, that is why we are all born into sin and need whats called the ransome sacrifice of Jesus to buy back our lives.
A lot of judicial legalities occur in heaven that we are unaware of.
Sorry to hear this, you've got to stay positive and supportive, I know how hard it is visiting someone you love who is ill in hospital but you do it, you just do for them. Make sure you look after yourself too as that is just as important.
big hugs
Tina x
Where were you Amanda? This night here the longest night of my life? Where were you when sam needed you? You know something I never have seen sam open up to anyone she bared all here, when I was in hospital I was on my death bed real warm there too, so many ppl had her back and the one person I thought would of had didn't say a word.
We was friends ya know I cared about you ya know, please just leave it now ok!!
You take care of yourself I'm coming of this site anyway I don't even need you to answer the questions I've put to you I know the answers
Please try to be happy you need to sort stuff out for yourself see ya round kiddo
Why do u think i did. ?? Where was i. Where was i? On the end of the phone talking you out of swallowing those tablets for march 4th 2021 (yes i know how important to u) . 2 please think of jess. As you were opening packs of pills i was wracked with crying my heart out i worried all nyt long. All after being on this site is it wise to help ppl as ill as each other. Im not guna go on the carry it on fight u know i was ill wat i had to go thru and still held the fone and tried for hirs. Then was there after pleading for u to be checked out when u called with yr good news and we spoke for ages on my may to glasgow. So dont say i didnt care thats so hurtful distepectful. And harmful when im in poorly. So ok you take care...x
Off the site so no comm reqd. To my few friends on here u know who u sre gorla . Kp on goin on. Xxx bye b4 xx ans as for sam she sounds an amazing friend2 u like my james & 2 Have fun,,,
I'm not fighting you amanda I'm telling you.
When I took Ill you didn't say a word until I said something to sam on her post you saw the post amanda not once did you make yourself known or anything send well wishes nothing then the other night longest night I had why didn't you comment inbox me hey?
Was it because it was peace? What was with the comment I'm happy for you both etc and I didn't want to ask personal stuff because it's not my place anymore what does that even mean hey? You want me to tell you want it means? Would you prefer me to pm you what it means or do you want everyone else to know too
Cmon now!! You don't like me being with peace amanda and you know it I not one for public humiliation so I don't want to quote here but if you like I'll pm you and explain everything to you unless you would prefer to do that here it's up to you amanda?
You may not want a reply but I've done you one
It's being monitored as per norm amanda let me tell you something before you go jealousy will consume you it'll eat you alive I don't think I need to say anymore you know what I mean
You were not meant to get hurt I tried to protect you not meeting you etc was for your own good ya know when I met someone remember what you said but you had Neil and your partner before him I'm sorry I hurt you Amanda don't think that was intentional ya know look you got Neil ok let him be enough for you give him a chance that's it that's all you have to do and you'll be as happy as I am with peace you take care
Hun I'm not saying you wasn't there in the 4th I told you to not ring me that day you insisted that was before I met peace right? Your going to make a Fantastic partner for the right person for you I'm not the right person for you you only thought I was because I was nice to you you really thinking back would have preferred me to take advantage of you in that situation really? Let's not mess around and decorate it up that's exactly what I would have been doing if I'd met you
Cmon your worth more than that right?
Good luck Amanda really
I am truly. Were building a future together too. Know all my baggage is gone xxx
He is dafinately my right person . Just please dont tell me i didnt care. Be happy i know i will be bye xxx
Hi peter yea she Is recovering thankyou for asking, give it a week or two I'm sure she'll be fighting fit again!!
Certain changes are probs a must but sometimes these things are a helpful reminder we do need to look after ourselves better we are not indestructible
Hope you are well
Mike