I don't know where to start.. Fighting against generalised anxiety for 2 years now and I don't make a lot of progress on how I actually feel. I never been a happy person due the fact of a difficult past with abuse on a age from 4 to 13 years old. After that was over I felt depressed and Ive been doing stupid things which doesn't fit me like smoking weed daily etc. Only positive for me was that I was doing ok on school, but that changed when I was 17 years old. I stopped doing my study and quited my job. I created a anxiety disorder where i'm still fighting against till today, I'm 19 years old now. The last months I feel a lot more depressed. My feelings are complex I think. It feels like I'm completely done with myself. I never been a happy person and I'm so tired. I wake up depressed and I go to sleep depressed. It feels like I'm in a blackhole where I can't get out. It feels like i'm not a free human being anymore. Sometimes it feels like I don't even know what I feel or think! I'm not happy who I am. I feel like i'm confused and have no purpose anymore. It feels like I don't have any grip on my thoughts and life anymore and I screw up everything. My list can go on and on... All of this above make me feel like i'm getting deeper and deeper into that blackhole. Yes some things I improved in like going to a supermarket etc. just the really simple stuff, but my feelings are getting worse. Don't know what to do now. I feel hopeless. Need help and advice. Would really apreciate it if someone could help me out. I lost like almost all my friends over these 2 years so there aren't many people left where I could talk to.
Sorry you are going through this. It must be very difficult for you. I know what anxiety and depression feel like and it is a black hole. What you need is some guidance so you can first of all, vent to someone, which is a great feeling. then that counselor or therapist can help you take the first steps to get on track and gain some positive feelings for yourself. THEY have the tools to show you how to manage anxiety, give you a purpose, drive and hope, help you feel less confused, etc.
Its hard to do this alone.
Can you reach out to find a therapist? FAMILY or friends can be helpful too.
You dont need to keep feeling this way,theres lots of help. Some communities have low cost counseling too. 
if you really need to talk to someone 24/7 in the states, call 800-273-8255 its confidential and they may have COUNSELING resources too
I have a psychologist, but I’m not happy with it. She helped me to do more stuff, but not the way I feel. She is now 6 weeks on holiday and I just got the feeling that I really need someone to talk to. I also take medicine; fluoxetine, but I don’t know if it is actually helpful anymore. I don’t want to stop right now, because this period is difficult for me, but later I will. Sadly I don’t live in the US, so that’s gonna work I’m afraid. I got job application about a hour and I feel really bad.. I don’t know how I can handle it.
HI
I have an idea of how you are feeling.
Please please seek help. Demand that your GP listen to you. Tell them exactly shat you have said here and that it is only going to get worse. There are other meds and therapies they can provide.
Let me know how you get on.
Keep in touch.
Yeah I will. I’m doubting to search for another psychologist to be honest..