Hi lee, thank you..
My therapist was the one to make me realise that the way I am is because of what he did. She related things back to my childhood and it all made sense. I sent the letter and got a dull reply.. Nothing unusual! I didn't even want a reply.
Although I don't know all your problems I do believe that whatever it is they stem from your childhood and you need to face them even though some of them will not be good memories and figure out answers or get someone to help you go through them separately. I recommend a life coach! I think it's easier to talk to people you don't know. I'm glad I joined here because I know I'm not alone, and some people know exactly what I mean.