I’ve been on and off sertraline for the past 3 years, when I would start to feel better I’d foolishly just stop taking it, not even too bothered with all the side effect(brain zaps) because I knew they were harmless
Long story short, about a month ago I had a few stressful days that eventually led me back on the depression train, my anxiety was out of control and I barely could breath when i had a certain thought.
My first week I was on 25mlg of sertraline, then the past 3 weeks I’ve been on 50 mlg and it’s made everything so goddamn hard. I’ll have moments where I’ll feel ok somewhat, then a certain thought or feeling completely stops time for me and I keep thinking I just want it all end.
It’s asif I cant access the things that used to make me feel content or happy and I just keep dreading the next day which completely destroys my reality. Is this a side effect of the drug or am I literally going insane? The thought of being positive or active or having fun fills me with anxiety too.
I’ve been speaking to a counsler for the past couple of weeks and shes really nice and listens to what’s on my mind, i just find myself sometimes looking at the time, or analysing reality itself as something I dont understand anymore. If anyone else has went through these types of thoughts I’d be so incredibly grateful to know if I’ll feel better. Thank you x