First panic attack in over 6 years

Mental health
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Hi all,

I am writing this as a means of distraction right now. 

I am coming down from my first major panic attack in over 6 years and completely overwhelmed right now. I thought I had kicked it. Honestly.

Then tonight, out of nowhere, my whole world crashed down. My usually quiet neighbour held a party in his garden that turned into a bonfire. I became fixated on the fire and as they got drunker I got more and more stressed. 

I have spent so long being strong with my mind, I have tried and tested strategies I use all the time but tonight I couldn't. I eventually crawled away from the window and had a full panic attack, I threw up, couldn't breathe etc. It's now about an hour on and I'm still shaking, grinding my teeth etc. 

I can't believe all the work I e done to get this under control has been pointless. I'm so utterly gutted and feel like I've failed myself and those that have tried to help me.

Gutted.

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You haven't failed Iam in the same position thought I was doing well and bang had it over a wk now but hopefully it passes for u 

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You haven't failed anybody. This is not your fault. No one knows why some people have anxiety so badly, not even doctors.  All they can really do is prescribe medication.

There are great meditations on you tube for Panic. They guide you through them.

Just search for Panic Attack Emergency.   There are several to choose from. 

Earbuds give a better effect. 

 You tube also has guided meditation for anxiety, depression, sleep. 

 anxiety can rear its ugly head whenever it wants. So it's nobody's fault that this happens to them. But it can be controlled to a great extent. I listen to those meditations a couple times a day and it's really been helpful. I hope you feel better soon 🌸🌸🌸

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This is not your fault. It might help to reassure you that you will always have moment of panic,  but you WILL get through them. They WILL pass.

Have you spoken to your GP about medication in the very short term to help?

❤️

Phil

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Thank you, I hope the same for you.

I've been pretty useless today, complete shock to the system! 

Thankfully the weather was nice so I could sit outside, that always helps me.

Hope your weekend has been ok x

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Hi!

Thank you for the kind words, really are much appreciated. Was so down about it all.

I completely agree about the mediations, I use several everyday that normally get me through fine. They're so much a part of my day now, normally they keep me so centred. I'm a Special Needs teacher and actually lead guided meditations for my class at school as I realised through my own difficulties how much they can help anyone.

I think that's why last night hit me so hard, I'm usually so on top of things, last night I couldn't stop the panic coming. Maybe it needed to happen though, so I can build up again.

I hope your weekend is going well!

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Hi Phil,

Thank you for your kind words! I have a GP appt next week about something unrelated so I'm definitely going to bring it up. 

I always thought it would feel like a backward step if I needed meds again (I've been managing myself without them relatively successfully since 2012) but there's definitely a pattern developing.

As soon as term finishes and I'm on holiday I feel myself slipping. Last night was just a wake up call.

Thank you again for your kind words, they really do mean a lot 🙂