Hi, I’ve been debating whether to seek advice from the GP as this has been going on for around 3 years. I haven’t spoke to anyone about how I’ve felt and it’s causing problems in my relationship of 4 years. I feel as though I’m pushing him away. I am a very organised person I like a plan for everything and find it quite distressing if someone is 5 minutes late or a plan is changed. I don’t like going shopping on my own and always feel as though people are looking at me. I get to a gym class half hour early as the thought of walking in the room when everyone is already there makes me feel nervous. Although everyone thinks I’m very sociable and would find it bizzare that i do worry as I come across as outgoing, I just worry I’m going to say something stupid and will think about it for the rest of the day or if I feel someone is being different with me (when they’re not) I will be worrying wondering if I’ve said something wrong. I worry a lot about my family and that someone I love will be in an accident or will become ill. I have periods of feeling very deflated and not having much excitement and look forward to going to bed because I can forget about everything for a few hours. It’s affecting my relationship as he feels I’m pushing him away and that I’m more irritable and not as affectionate. Im telling him that I don’t know why and that I do still want to be with him I just can’t put my finger on why I’m being the way I am.
I feel embarrassed talking about it as I don’t feel like people will understand.
So sorry.
I just started a cbt therapist for anxiety and depression. She really helps a lot. I have a journal that she wants me to do eve r yday about what is going on. I have been feeling better since going to her. Just a thought for u
hugs
Mary
Leanne as on the what's app group? I like to be punctual, and I'm impatient! My punctuality thing was part of my abusive childhood by mother. I don't have a problem with large groups of people, I prefer being up the mountains, than a supermarket! Times are just numbers!!! Do they really matter? NO, just switch off! Poor Neil in the group talk can't leave the house!!!! At least you go to the gym! I do also, been today, takes longer now to get the good chemicals flowing, can be running anything up to an hr before they kick in! But they do. I'm not far away from Neil, I'm going over and drag him out of that house.
leanne -
thanks for posting.
i read what you wrote and i have dealt with some of the same stuff.
if you notice a lot of what we worry about, you worry about, is in the future.
we think about it so much that the worry almost becomes inevitable to us.
we then worry about our worrying and wonder if our worrying will ever stop.
i understand what you're going through.
what i have found to work is to try and become aware as soon as possible when i start down the path of worrying about something. so if i worry and im daydreaming about the worry, i try to notice that as soon as the thoughts begin.
i then will try and say to myself, oh i am worrying. i try to feel the worry and say all will be OK to myself. I then try to thought stop and get myself distracted with something else that i know can get my mind working, like work or a hobby.
so i first realize it's OK to have the initial thought and feeling, and then i say it's not OK to keep on replaying it though. the distraction I find helps.