hi everyone im new to this site, my first experience with aniexty was wheni went on my first holiday last year, after a week when we were supposed to stay for two i flew home after feeling constantly sick with worry ( i couldnt tell you what the worry was about) couldnt sleep unless i was drunk couldnt eat, felt sick at the thought of food, ended up getting a flight home and everything went back to normal, until i ended up worrying about the smallest of things, mostly at night, and then it end up turning into me panicking feeling sick with worry again over not alot but to me felt like the world. This eventualy would pass and i would carry on as normal. I went on holiday this week and ended up flying home again as i felt constantly sick with worry over nothing again couldnt eat couldnt sleep unless drunk, didnt want to socialize couldnt be bothered with going out, things that i normally love, out of the three holidays ive had in the past two years i have flown home from 2 our of 3 the first one i had absolutley no symptons whatsover and enjoyed every minute of the two weeks away. A visit to the doctor has referred me to the mental health services and suggested having a think about anti depressents, i cant have beta blockers because of my asthma and also dont really like the idea of being on anti depresants.Returning from my holiday this time round i was hoping the symptons would fade but it hasnt its if anything got worse with the sickness and worry at the disapointment that i have put my friend through for her flying back with me as there was only two of us, we work together and going back to work terrfies me as i feel i will be judged by the other workers as i feel they wont understand the anxeity. Any one had similar experiences will it fade will anything help? terrified of going on holiday again and now noone will want to go with me either
Thanks