For one day I like my partner my kids feel what I do everyday and think what goes threw my head. And to know what I think is not crazy .
How can you explain to someone that has not have depression that your not crazy or mucked up in the head .
Don't get me wrong they can be supportive, they just don't get it . I try and tell them I don't want to over think things I don't want to cry I don't want to always be worrying if things go wrong . I don't want be like this .
Had depression for over 25 years and I still don't deal with it myself . Why can't I look at life like they do and not over think all the time .
I get annoyed coz no one listening to me , they just think mums depressed . Nooo am not always depressed when am having a bad day or say something it's not coz am depressed I just have a different way of dealing with things .
How I wanna scream and run away , this isn't my fault I have this stupid illness it's people that done this to me who grinded me down . Be coz I am a good kind hearted person and trusted people , who have just hurt me .
How can I change and not let people carry on doing this when do you get selfish and think of you .
Am fed up and tired of trying to explain how I feel that insecurity is a big issue . I have to change and I don't know how to or were I can go to change me .
I want to I want be that confident person , I want to not over think and I want to not cry . I want to be happy ...... I don't want be like this forever I want to change my life , it's draining living with this .
There a life out there waiting for us to experience , and there happiness out there . Laughter fun times, why do we all think negative all the time .
One day at a time to put a postive in your day , even if it's one thing .
My be as a forum let's all put one positive thing we done a day . It's better then all negatives, coz that postive will make us smile and know we done something .
My postive thing today is , going to the shop buy something nice to eat and cook it and sit down as a family xx