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after checking today, its grown bigger and more have shown up from the last time I've checked. When i wipe there is also usually some blood on the toilet paper, which is why i thought it was hemorrhoids at first. I first noticed the main lump around 1-2 months ago.
I'm kinda lost on what to do. I'm currently at home after graduating from college, and won't be able to see a doctor myself for 3-4 weeks until I move to start my full time job. There's also the question of how to find a suitable doctor to treat this problem. Mentally I feel very gross and disgusted with myself. Can anyone offer some advice?