ok so I have this PTS thing going on with a side note of anxiety. not having a good evening now. I don't feel safe and I don't really have a place to go. I'm not able to go to my home, I have a neighbor who has been harassing me, threatening me, an stolen my security camera from me. I gave cops the pictures an even as he came out to threaten me the cops just stood there. I am in capable of defending myself. I had heart surgery a month ago, so what can I do? I have no where to go an no money for a hotel. I feel like giving up...
I just feel like, what’s the point. I messed up 30 years ago, paid my dept to society, but somehow I am still paying for it. this police Department won’t help me because I am on a registry, an they blame it on the pandemic. What the hell is wrong with our society where disabled, older people, can’t receive even the basic right of being safe in your own home! I so exhausted, emotionally, and I just keep thinking about suicide or cutting to deal, I’m so scared I can’t even cry…
if you live in the US, here’s a number you can call 24 hours a day seven days a week. you can talk to someone there. They may have some resources for you. There’s always hope. 800 273 8255.