I have been feeling really gulity recently as i just turned 30 and feel like a failure in every capacity at life. As i a person with CP and in a wheelchair there are things i struggle with being capable of doing. Can't even a full time just 16 hours never had any type of romantic relationship either. Picture as just managing to peep through the open doors but them never really seeming to fully open no matter what i do and it makes me so sad cause i do try. All these feeling contributed to my GAD flaring up and then it creates a weird scenario where even being happy is a challenging even getting up can become hard almost something to proud off!? Sometimes I feel like i should just except myself as a failure as my existence and just try to be happy in my lame existence to keep the depressive state at bay but its just a vicious cycle Does this make any sense?
Hi Jerom first off You are not a Failure. And your cp is apart of who you are. You did nit choose it. I understand the gad part all to well and the feelings of regret. But you have to tell yourself one day at a time. Maybe you can take some online classes. Do you have a hobbie something you love? What kind of things make you happy? Those are all positive things to hold on to. Try to wake up everyday and say I got this and yes a partner is nice but not everything. Take my word for it. Im sure you have wonderful family and friends who care for you. And remember smile at the small things and let it bring joy to your life even in the hard moments. Take care
Thank you i feel like i am already starting to feel better! O thank you!!