Good evening everyone. Although I have suffered for many years with anxiety...I was never formally diagnosed until recently. Actually about 3 weeks ago.
It has been a rollercoaster ride to say the least.
My anxiety had gotten soo bad till I was basicly a shut in. If I didn't have to leave my home I wouldn't...and that was fine with me.
Simple trips to the grocery store would have me shaken & stired to say the least. Even sitting on my front porch was out of the question.
It was soooo bad.
I have lost several jobs ( or should I say quit) because of how many bad episodes I would have.
I had to do something... The thing is...my demographic of people don't really accept any type of mental illness easily. Its all bottled in one flat and straight forward category "CRAZY". And to be honest...sometimes this anxiety makes me feel just that.
Well here I will share my journey with you all...because right now its my own personal bag of sXXt that I have to keep to myself and figure out for now...and I know at least 1 of you may be able to relate...well I hope you can.
I will be honest & upfront with everything...good...bad...or indifferent.
Wow...just the thought of having an outlet makes me feel a little...well...happy
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Ah, our dear friend anxiety! Who likes to gate crash our life at the most inconvenient of times.
I too have left jobs as the crushing anxiety has really made things difficult, that and depression, what a mix! Agggh!
I am aiming to get back into part time work at some point, ease my way back in, and take it from there. Even if I find a role that means I start off on one day, just to test the waters, I will do it!
Hopefully you'll find with time, you can take more control of that demon anxiety and come out on top! It's great to be able to come here and offload your worried amongst people who absolutely 'Get you' as they are dealing with similar.
It's great to hear you feel happy being able to share your thoughts and experiences.
Take care!
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Wow you sound like me. At my worst( years of this) . I didn't care if I never left the g house again. Would only go out with mum. When out worried people w looking at me and if I spoke to them they would think I was strange. If I did interact I would sweatcshake , heartvracing. Now I cope better, I hid it too long , felt people would say pull yourself together. Now I know I'm not crazy . Talking helps, great people understand how it feels. Still have days I can't stop obsessively worrying , heart racing not great, also my doctors great , just gives me small amount meds when really bad then I push on. Horrible illness, wish was a total cure but as other poor people with other illnesses we have to try to mange it. Everyone please talk here especially when mega worrying. No need to be alone. ( living in your own head , convincing yourself everything's ten times worse, not the way to beat this) ❤️
Good morning guys... I've been on meds for a couple weeks. Lexapro & busbar. I also take Lisinopril for high blood pressure caused by my extreme anxiety. I also take trazodone for sleep at night.
Just yesterday I was prescribed a pill that I forget the name of...but it's to help with the weight gain since I'm almost 250 from binge eating & to help stop smoking.
Adjusting to allll this medicine is a rollercoaster ride. I feel like I have to stick to what the Dr suggests for now. Even if some days I feel a hot mess.
The anti anxiety meds seem to be working a bit...but I still feel like the rabbit in the hole. Just able to peep out more often then not.
I even had a milestone moment...I sat on my porch for about 15mins...& days after went to the grocery store without feeling as though I was about to freak out.
I'm thankful for the small things at this point. Got a new job just as I was starting meds and its a bit of a struggle point. Even on meds I feel that anxiety wins over a lot.
Oh well...progress is progress though.
Yes, I find even on meds (Citalopram) that anxiety can get the better of me, sometimes. I am on 40mgs.
I did take Zopiclone to help me sleep for just over a week, but I turned into a zombie! Eek!
Nytol I take at times, which does help me sleep but I have a break now and again as it tends to lose it's potency.
Good luck with your new job! I hope things work out for you. I think it's good to press on, when you can of course. I just hope I can soon.
Take care!
Sometimes I really think that I went back to work too soon. I just quit a job about 2 months ago and the episode that caused me to quit was massive... It left me a wreck. To the point that for the 1st time in years I admited that I was anxieties b!tch.
Everyday at my new job is filled with tension & medium bouts of anxiety. But I press on...bills don't pay themselves 😞
You are soo right... My thoughts seem to be my enemy a lot of times...but I have no control over it most times. Even on the meds...although I feel less of a overthinker and worrier...I still feel my body tense up in recognition of the stress and anxiety. Its tough. Sooooo tough.
Please take your time getting back to work. Im finding that thats my mistake.. If I could afford to fully recover from my last major break before I returned I really really would've. I feel as though Im pushing myself to do what I k ow I'm not ready for...and I feel it everyday...even on the meds.
Plus with my body adjusting to the meds I feel off sometimes and less productive. Even tired and out of it by tje end of my day. Barely making it to clockout time. It gets soooo pitiful at times. But I will push on.