GIVE ME YOUR ADVICE & PERSONAL THOUGHT'S!!! I'm feeling very lost, unsure, and hopeless.

Okay so it all starts a little over a year ago, almost 2 years. I am 345 pounds (obese). I am 5'6. I'm not even pre diabetic, my bad cholesterol is good and my good cholesterol is good too. My left breast had become really tender and I swore I had felt a hard lump. I called a lady that lived in my community who had just recently won her battle against breast cancer. I expressed my concern's and she reassured me that she doubted it was breast cancer but it was worth making an appointment with my primary physician and getting it checked out. That following day, I went and hung out with my bestfriend. I expressed my concern's to her and she was like well actually you could have a thyroid issue. Mind you I hadn't been to the doctor ever since middle school and that was to get my shot's that were required. I ask her about the thyroid and she's like if you have thyroid problem's and you don't get them treated you can die. Boom, the next day I was sicker than a dog, couldn't eat a thing. I was terrified of going to sleep, was so scared I wouldn't wake up. I made an appointment with my doctor at this point, more so focused on my left breast pain. It was a stabbing stinging pain every now and then. I was like it's either my heart or breast cancer. I go to her, she does a breast exam and assure's me I do not have breast cancer. So then I'm in tears and I'm like it has to be my heart. She does an ekg right there in the clinic and it came out good. She tells me that my heart is fine. I got home that day, looked so much stuff up and convinced myself that she probably just missed something. My left arm had been constantly tingling, I'm constantly light headed at this point. I just knew it was a heart problem. I had become so hopeless at this point that everyday was miserable for me. I started going to the doctor every day. Sometime's twice a day. Then she schedule me for an Echocardiograph of my heart because it's a more thorough test. I went and had it done, everything was fine. I was reassured for a bit but then I was right back. I noticed when I swallowed on the left side of my throat a circle would pop out. After many times of telling my doctor that it wasn't normal, she did a more thorough blood test of my thyroid and found out I am hypothyroid and I have Hashimoto's Thyroiditis. She claims that thing that pushes out of my neck at the bottom of it when I swallow is supposedly my thyroid and diagnosed me "goiter".. now that was believable until she read my ultrasound off and they said it looks bigger in my right side.... but the left side is what pops out??? I also got a ultrasound on my left arm due to the swelling, nothing was found.. no blood clot or anything. Now, almost 2 years later. My left arm is swollen, hasn't ever went down.

My left side of my face is swollen, hasn't went down. Muscle weakness in that same left arm. I started living with it. Accepting it for what it is. Now, 4 days ago, I woke up extremely light headed. Went to the ER and they hooked me up to everything, drew labs. My free T4 was fine, but the doctor still said I was hypothyroid. While I was sitting there, the monitor started beeping saying "bradycardia" my heart rate was 40 but when I picked my hand up it was back to 90 bpm. Idk if it was the machine messing up or not but I freaked out. I of course looked up bradycardia and it all clicked. What if my heart rate is really too low but when I'm at the doctor's I do have white coat syndrome so my heart races. I am so scared that there really is something wrong but they don't see it or they just don't care because they like to write me off when they see "anxiety." It's not normal at all for the left side of my body to be swollen. I'm worried that it's an artery issue, heart issue or an aneurysm in my carotid artery in my neck that pops out when I swallow. I sit slouched over so I have bad posture and that's understandable on my back pain. I also have GERD. I purchase a pulse meter and I check my pulse atleast 50 times a day just to check and see if it's dropped too low. If my pulse reaches in the 70's I start crying like crazy. I don't see how a person who is 345 pounds can have such a low heart rate. It scares me, doesn't seem normal. If I walk around the grocery store and go back to the car and sit down within 5-10 minutes my heart rate is back to 80-90's... Another thing my heart rate was 83 bpm today but my blood pressure was 150/98 HOW??? That doesn't seem normal at all!  I don't know what is going on lately but hopefully some of you can shine some light on this situation for me or even tell me what you all think. So, if ANYONE know's anything about these symptoms, has advice, wants to give me their opinion. PLEASE DO. I just can't believe that all of this can just be "anxiety." 

Diagnoses:

Hypothyroid

Generalized Anxiety Disorder

Severe Health Anxiety (hypochondria) 

Vitamin D Deficiency

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder 

Panic Disorder with Agoraphobia

 

Hello Kylin

Looking at your script above and what you consider are problems you think you have I need to say your problems are Anxiety related. Some may say like above Hypochondria. However I prefer not to use that word.

However I would advise you discuss your concerns with your family Doctor who will decide upon a treatment pathway to help

Stop looking up things you think you have, you will make matters a great deal worse doing that.

However you do really need to understand health concerns that are chronic or life threatening are very rare and given that you need to move on and live your life

BOB

 

Thank you so much. None of this is easy to accept though. Like I know I'm heavier. I'm worried about having a heart problem that they're just not seeing. I'll watch my pulse on a pulse meter go up and down, up and down. It scares me. I see it happening. That's not normal for your pulse rate to go from 90 to 70 back up to 90. I don't think doctor's are taking me seriously. I just can't believe that this is anxiety. I looked up sign's of sudden cardiac arrest and I have some of those sign's. It's so scary. Like what if my body is trying to let me know that I'm about to have a faulty heart. My lower pulse could be my heart saying hey I'm about to give out on you. The ER doctor's didn't take me serious either. I'm so frustrated. When I have gas, I am light headed. Idk if that's related to my GERD or not. I'm very very scared and frustrated. I can't sleep. I'm afraid to sleep. When I wake up at 7:30, I cannot go back to sleep. No matter what. I had been sleeping until 9 AM or longer when I have nothing going on. Now, I have been waking up off and on, checking my pulse then I go back to sleep then when I wake back up again, I check my pulse and I will not go back to sleep. What's going on with me seriously?

It's possible you could have caught an Enterovirus when you became sick after talking to your friend.  They can cause heart rhythm symptoms, anxiety, GERD, lightheadedness, etc... and can be very stubborn and long lasting.  Unfortunately, only a very few doctors are aware of this so most victims are never correctly diagnosed.  Check out the list of symptoms at Enteroviruses .com.  It's strange but the antidepressant Fluoxetine [Prozac] appears to be strongly antiviral against Enteroviruses in lab studies.

Kylins

If you keep checking your pulse it is normal to see it varies depending on what you are doing, also if you are stressed and Anxious. The ranges given above are quite normal, accept that. The range you describe will change when you sit down or even climbing stairs will give corresponding readings. When you keep taking your pulse over and over again different readings are given.

If you go to the GP or hospital they will need to take first readings at rest, if the reading is high they will sit you down and let the reading drop to rest. So stop taking readings, although if you feel the need take a reading in the evening a few hours after eating, when we eat our blood pressure rises, this is normal. If you have kit learning how to use it and work to those limits. You are also suffering Anxiety your readings will be higher because of it.

If you think you have weight problems, talk to the Doctor, He will place you on a diet and the nurse will watch over you, however if it is the Anxiety  it MAY be you do not need to loose weight and a change of diet or exercise that may be all you need to do..

BOB