So as the title reads, im really good at sorting other people's anxiety issues out but tonight, I can't even fathom my own.
Alot of people have helth anxiety on here, about their physical health. I would like to find someone who actually suffers with the same as me; anxiety about my mental health. I have now found myself in a situation where I don't want to test my anxiety or push myself because I am frightened I was lose my mind, start hearing voices, basically have symtpoms of schizophrenia or develop it.
If you've read anything of mine youll know that when i left my abusive partner and got dperession, my best friend was sectioned after having a breakdown. This really scared me to death and has been a worry of mine ever since.
I am going to have to try and implement 'worry time' which ive done previously and suggested to a few other people.
I am fed up of having it today and I am so annoyed that Im being bullied by something I know isnt even real 
I have anxiety about sorting out my depression and anxiety, scared of it getting worse or if nothing helps there's not much point in going on anymore.. Pathetic but I don't know what I'll do if nothing works and it scares me I'm just going to either stay like this or just stop it all if nothing works..
Meant to go to the doctors today but cannot bring myself to do it, I know I need to but what if it doesn't help? Nothing will help the hatred towards myself, the damage is done.. Don't even know what to say, I'm scared to go but I'm even more scared of what will become of my life if I go and it doesn't work.
Jake don't give up. Go to the doctors. Please tell him how you are feeling. There is hope! There will be a tommorrow in your life and every tommorrow and day can get better. You just have to allow yourself to get better and that first step is seeing a doctor. You can do it. And if for no other reason than to see if it can help. No point in giving up before you have tried everything including going to the doctor today. So how bout it just one more. AlwAys just one more. Your so close don't miss this doctors apoontment. You could be so close to the road of recovery. Life is great you just have to take steps toward it.
Hi Jake, I also have a doctor's appointment today and like you im finding it hard to bring myself to go as I know its going to be another wasted visit, but lets hang in there and go as we deserve to get better, please don't be scared we will be better soon, let me know how you get on, sending u luck and a hug 
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I am the same Sarah. My biggest fear is thinking " what if it's more than anxiety and depression"" what if one day it gets to me so bad that I end up with more severe mental illness"" what if I never get better"!!!
This is our anxiety and as I'm sure you have told lots of people,anxiety lies. It takes a hold of a thought that normally we would just shrug off and it clings to it and torments us.
When we are having a good day,we can even laugh that we thought that way but when we are anxious it comes back. A anxious mind creates these thoughts and we react to it with panic.
We are not going crazy sugar and my shrink said that if I was I wouldn't even know it.....
The fact that we question and reason with these thoughts is because we are rational,normal people who just so happen to suffer anxiety xx
Thanks Gillian, so glad Ive found someone who thinks the same!! My anxiety is a mix of past abuse/ fear of schizophrenia. Can't wait to be able to manage it better!
Ive found a page about 'the fear of schizophrenia' and I feel like printing it out so i can keep referring and realise i do not have it!! xx
But you won't know that unless you go? I think you should make a telephone appointment whic will be more comfortable for you. You got anxiety and depression because of a reason, so sorting out.managing that reason is possible. If recovery wasnt possible, having the illness in the first place would not be possible. Please do not give up on yourself. The damage is not done. xx
But you won't know that unless you go? I think you should make a telephone appointment whic will be more comfortable for you. You got anxiety and depression because of a reason, so sorting out.managing that reason is possible. If recovery wasnt possible, having the illness in the first place would not be possible. Please do not give up on yourself. The damage is not done. xx
Well I didn't go and I'm just ashamed of myself, why do I know I have to go but just can't bring myself to do it...
I think a telephone appointment isn't such a bad idea I hadn't thought of that, even if I wanted to go in I have no confidence and get really anxious and have to plan everything I'd say.. Thanks for that suggestion though I think I might actually do that xx
So do I so Ive been having telephone apps for the past year and they don't care, its easier for them too
Don't even plan it, ring make the telephone app and theyll give you a slot theyll call you in. Then just say it.
You WILL get better, there is no doubt about that xx
Thanks a lot Sarah, means a lot and I hope you are feeling better..
Do they prescribe medication over the phone and do I just tell them how I feel or just say I have depression, I don't feel comfortable when I don't know what to say x
Yea, theyve given me anti depressant prescriptions that ive just had to pick up. Id write a bullet point list of your feelings. For example I said: Ive split up with my absuive partner of 3 years who has hospitalised me in the past and was violent throughout, i still love him but i have had enough its really hard, I have no job and I feel horrendous. I feel very tired, wondering how long this is going to last and i am worrying on a daily basis. Then they just ask you some general questions. Its fine to be honest, they hear so many people with the same problems everyday. I am 100% sure you wil feel better after the conversation xx
Just hard I've never spoke to someone except online about how I feel, I tend to put on a cover that I'm fine and I don't want to come off like I'm fine anymore, because I'm far from it.
I did make a letter I was going to take In similar to what I said in my first post here and I know it's silly but I just can't bring myself to go and speak to someone in person, let alone with how low I am at the minute.
I will start making a list for when I talk to them, really sorry that you have been through all of that by the way and you are very strong to be dealing with it all xx.. Helped more than you think and I feel a bit more optimistic, thank you x
It's terrifying..I know. Your waiting for the good days just to give you a little hope and promise yourself that you will remember this good day on the bad days but you don't. On the bad days you fear you will never be ok again. It's tiring talking yourself down and not quite believing it.
I think/ hope that it just takes time..
I keep telling myself I've done this before and will agin but then the negative thinks " what if can't this time"???
we just have to remember that it's all depression and anxiety and that regardless of how we are thinking,them little tablets are still doing there job and one day they will of done there job well enough for us to push that last way through this xx
Thank you Gillian for the uplifting words. I know you were speaking to someone else but it touched my heart too. So thank you for lifting my spirits.
I have suffered similar situation that you in when you said that you advice others and you cann't control you problems. you have done to feel well others with advices and can take these advices for you. because you don't want, are scared, or simply don't find the solution your problems. some friends have said you think well, your advice has helped me, thak you advice, but when I have a mental or insignificant problem, I can't understand the consolation to it. the most problems that I have had has been mental, sujectives which has provoked anxiety, scared and emotional exhaustion. when we begin to lose the control of our mind is when leave the sujective things pass to be really in our mind. thinking so much in some problem, things or situations, we made a exhaustiion of energic our brian.our brain tend to confunse of that is real and of that is sujective, imaginary. try to relax in different ways which you are acustumary. if change of place where you are living if you can, or go to pass a weekend in a different place or similar things.
I dont take any medication but Ive felt a lot better since Ive stopped being in denial about the domestic violence i received for 3 years until I left this Xmas. It gves me a 'reason' for the feeling which I like and extra motivation to get through bad thought episodes because I now think being better is a big F U to him ha! What triggered yours by the way? xxx
Thankyou you are right that I was thinking too much about the same problem and not being able to see the thoughts for what they were - just thoughts. I hate having times like that and I hope they become less frequent! xx
A needle prick injury at work.
These last 10 week have been a struggle but I'm hoping I find the big FU attitude soon because my ex would love to see me so hopeless and scared.
Today is a bad day for me but last night was pretty ok.
I just need to be better. I'm a single mum and although my son is almost 18, he still needs me so although sometimes I want the ground to swallow me up,that isn't a option.xx