Starting to feel delirous. Whatever i have is now affecting my brain and nervous system. Everyday is getting progressively worse and nobody seems to think anything is wrong. Even if they do think something is wrong, they are willing to let me be bedridden in agony suffering for months. My girlfriend is about to leave me with my son and the general consensus is that i'm putting this all on for a big show. Like i really want to spend my entire life confined to this horrible room stuck here with through of dread. Not many options are left for me anymore. The medication that's been given is reducing my heart rate and blood pressure, however is not addressing the feelings i feel in my nervous system. Theres a constant feeling of pressure, tingling and aching all around my body. My muscles are often spasming and i'm constantly think of the worst. The worst part is no matter what i do i can't escape any of it. I've never felt so low in my life. All i want for me now is to just succumb to whatever is going on and hope it's quick and painless. Even if doctors or anyone else says they do care, all i wanted was a measly few days of being observed with a few fucking scans. But that seems to be too hard as other people are "more serious" than me". Most of those people are elderly people who have at least lived 80 years of their lives who are still active, yet i'm the one confined to the bed fighting constant adrenaline at 26. Half the time i can barely move my arms, legs, roll over or even look up. I don't even know what relaxed feels like anymore. Imagine being in a panic attack for 24 hours a day, that's been my life over the last 6 months. How the fuck is anyone mean't to go to work and carry on like normal when getting out of bed triggers a panic attack. Few thoughts on life atm. It fucking sucks, not only do the people you think care about you not only not really give a shit, when they say they do care, they force their opinions on you and make it look like your play acting. All i want from life now is to be a dad. I couldn't really give a shit about anything else. If someone can just get me some tests and allow me to do that whilst being observed for a few days, i'll be grateful. In the meantime, i'll be planning the easy route out. symptoms: - constant feeling tingling around body - Neck pain, back pain, leg and arm pain. - Strong pain in stomach from constant stomach acid - constant adrenaline surges even on beta blockers - numbness in arms and legs - walking down the stairs triggers exhaustion which lasts for hours - never EVER feel like eating. When i do eat it's tough. - pressure feeling around the head especially at the back by my neck and spine - costant hot/cold spells - constant sweating - inability to excercise - waking up 5-30 minutes after falling asleep with a pounding heart really fast - losing alot of weight rapidly - high heart rate and blood (when not taking propranalol) medications: - propranalol tests so far: - full blood work ups - 24h hour urinalysis - chest xray - stool sample - 24 hour ecg and 2 week event monitor all tests normal albeit a few electrolyte imbalances here and there
so sorry your going threw this it sounds awful. But if you have had bloods and that done and nothing is showing that a good sign. it’s hard to get your head around the fact it may all just b anxiety. my mum was the same we ended up getting her sectioned and it’s the best thing we ever did. they sorted her medication out and after a bit she was home. I suffer with really bad health anxiety also. always thinking something is wrong with me and never believing it can b anxiety. my auntie went paralyzed down 1 side couldn’t walk or anything she had all the tests and it turns out it was just nerves. please don’t think people don’t care it’s not that people don’t understand just as much as we don’t. Just try to tell yourself your fine and u will start to feel better.
take care.
Hi Chrisk92 I am sorry that you are going through this but have you had any sort of testing for chronic fatigue syndrome or lyme disease. Just a thought with all the symptoms. Hope you feel better soon.
Hey you’re not alone in this situation I’m in the same situation as you are and It f****** sucks a lot and I have very bad anxiety and panic attacks I have acid reflux disease really bad and I have depression I have a hiatal hernia and irritable bowel syndrome which really sucks I’ve been very sick and finally I’m getting surgery to fix it
I’m sorry you are going through this awful stuff. I am out of work too and don’t know how or when I will return. It’s so hard especially when you have no support (financial or otherwise). Do you also have problems with your vision due to anxiety?
yeah it does go blurry quite a lot. I had a job which i was enjoying and i can also worm from home if needed, however i can’t concentrate.
i’m literally bedridden. Lost so much weight and my muscles are getting really thin. Glad you’ve managed to get some help though. I’ve just been prescribed citalopram this morning to work on top of the propranolol. Hate taking medication..
i have this weird thing where when i stand up, my heart rate soars really quickly from around 100 to 140 bpm. Regardless if i’m anxious or not. Been tested for lyme disease though and that was fine
All i really want is to just be put in hospital and observed for a few days. They will see then everything thats going on. But they refuse to do so. If i ever had to i would get myself sectioned
I have blurry vision too, along with some other weird stuff. That is great you can work from home. Try y best to work in increments. Start with ten minutes at a time. I am currently on unpaid status and I don’t have a spouse. So, not good…at all.
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If that’s what you want just go sign yourself into a psych hospital
They have to treat your physical problems along with your psych problems.
you are not alone in this group were all here for you i know it seems hopeless. trust me its not i been there many times 24hrs in panick attack lasted about 1years doing better today started counciling does wonders just remember panic attacks can not kill you even though they make you seem like they can just keep repeating to yourself im okay im not going to let you win i wish you all the luck in the world you will be fine
sounds like you could do with something stronger than beta blockers have you considered antidepressants? beta blockers didn’t do much for me so I went on to citalapram which helped a lot with the things you are suffering with.
Hi Chris, Thank you for sharing this. I have the exact same probs, I am also on propranonol, I don’t find it helps with anxiety, GAD, mentally, but i have noticed ever since taking it the tremors have reduced and sweating, however I still get really bad palptitations and have bad anxiety. I have had an ecg done, blood tests, tried, well been off and on antidrepessants since I was 14/15, now i’m in my twenties and decided because of the side effects i was getting never to go back on them, i have asked my docs for benzos, as my friend is on them for her anxiety, but because they are highly addictive they declined me taking them. I get terrified going outside most days, feel tired all the time, and sometimes to calm me down and to lessen the anxiety id have dilluted drink to calm anxiety. Now i am on waiting list for therapy since may, now its end of december and still waiting… anxiety is real bad and docs have also diagnosed me with slight bpd. I have same problem also with eating, sleeping, eye probs, muscle cramps and aches, had x rays, MRIs’ etc, everything seems normal. hope things do get better, as just feel like everyday is going by and feel guilty that am not able to do much.