Had it up to here of therapy

Why is it people think one kind of therapy works for everyone?

I am doing CBT for the second time. Its crap. It did not work last time. Its not working now. All i get is worksheets to fill in and no one even asks me about how i got to where i am, or whats happening to me. No one gives me any answers.

What the hell is the point of me writing down my emotions and negative thoughts? I know what they are!!!! I dont need reminding.

I know how i get them. But no one will talk about why i hate myself and why i am like this. All i get told is 'we will get there'.

They wont even help me with my self harming. I go into a session, say 'I burnt my arm wih 10 matches last night' and they say 'we will cover that in a different session'.

I am sooooooooo frustrated.

Been taking 40mg now for 2 weeks and i dont know if the increase from 20mg has made any difference.

Feel like no one is listening to me...I am shouting into the abyss.

Hi Emski, I know exactly what you mean, I understand you totally, and I am starting to get angry with everyone. Yes, I am in a sh*t relationship.....BUT SO ARE A LOT OF PEOPLE AND THEY MANAGE, so I say this WTF is up with me????? Sorry, I know I have to get out of this, the way i feel , Is ONLY (i HATE SAYING THIS, i DID PSYCHS.......WAIAST OF BLOODY TIME,JUST AS EVERYTHIGN HAS BEEN IN MY LIFE).

I have just seen my CPN, she lovely, but she does not feel like this (at least I hope she doesnt). Maybe she no right, maybe thats it.......I dont know Emski, nothing seems to work for me I am just (Doh!) born that way, aeither accept it or end it!!!!! Dont know!!!!! Dont care.

And to top it all decided to get hair cut, Sorry I am bit blind in my left eye and only really see from the right side of my face hence why I bump inot things alll the time....I could have done an effing better jhob, spending all that money on god dam n =hair cut. ProfesssioasnLSLOASJOP!!!!!!!! :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol: (Huh....so effing stable,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,oh my god alm down.......partner is going to get iot Usiing sh*t) Hes not using my mother......................would ANY lovely PERSON LIKE TO COME ALONG INSTEAD???????????????????????????????

Sorry folks, I am away tro wash my face in cold water :oops: :oops: :oops: :oops: :cry:

Sorry, that sounded like a real dig at health professionals..............sorry, really just a dig at the god damn hairdresser that ran away with my dosh.

Oh yup, while I am here ranting to myself about how crap my life is....I cant help but think, does my CPN remeber my case? Does she know the full story? Do any of them actually know the full story? Why have a professional body to deal with it all if they diont even try to find out 100 percent exactly what is going on, before a missdiagnosis is made and more suicides are commited.

Right, Ill just like to POINT THIS OUT

I was 4yeras old, my mother was called to nursery cause i was not socialising (AS MUCH AS I DO NOT WANT TO ADMIT THIS, bpd is what I was then) Unable to socialise. Only wanted to please other people, HERE i AM 28 YEARS LATER STILL REEPING THE CONSEQUENCES, here i am trying to get help, for something that nobody has ever explained to me.......why the eff did I do a psychs degree. What was it to waist my tome????????>??????????????? Sorry and while i :steam: on, I would like to add(my mother did not abuse me). My mother worked hard, was in a difficult position herself, and did not have it easy........so what ever service you ARE TRYING TO PROVIDE, please ,make sure you have the correct facts before deciding someone elses future, While I rant on about this , I would likre it to be noted that some services have tot\alyy failed peopple, some parents have had their OWN children removed from them, for their children to be maltreated in HOMES, institutions that create very sick individuals, as their carer was sick ....They could have been perfectly normal had the correct diagnosis been made.. I may add to this, that my very own father was brought up under thio system of control. I would like it to be noted that hiis brother commited suicide, his brother who, wrote english literature, and you probabbly tuck up in bed at night and read him.

So while I cant drive and do not intend to ever sit with a steering wheel in front of my 2 eyes whilst I can only focus one way, I watch my own mother with perfect vision being knocked into by accident prone people , (who quite frankly do not give a damn about other people).

BEFORE PEOPLE SET JUDGEMENT ABOUT SOMETHIN, PLEASE FIND OUT THE FULL FACTS BEFORE CREATING AN OPINION. i AM SICK OF THIS WORLD.

Emski, babe, I jhope they treat your burns properly, I understand. Take care of you, Katy.

Here my advice to anyone who feels crap.........WRITE IT DOWN.

THEN TELL SOMEONE

IF THAT DOES NOT HELP

then , speak to me :lol: :lol: :lol: 8)

Sorry, for my rants