Hey,
So I made an account on this website solely so I could tell my story and get help for the condition I've been suffering with for quite a while now. So for my whole life, I've had issues with anxiety (fearing certain outcomes)and social anxiety (in school, talking to cashiers). This sucked, but for the most part it was manageable by calming myself down...I never had panic attacks or anxiety attack or disocciation. However, last February I had a weed brownie and it affected me in such a way that I had a massive panic attack and ended up going to the hospital. Since then, I have been in constant fear of having another panic attack. My thought process whenever I go anywhere or do anything is always "am I going to lose control of my body" or "am I going to start going crazy like I did when I had the panic attack with the weed". I realize that my crazy actions were mostly due to it being a weed induced panic attack (I was screaming a lot and moving in crazy ways) as I have heard of this happening even to people without anxiety. I don't know what the criteria is for a panic attack, but I have defenitely had moments where I am thinking about having another panic attack and I do what I can only describe as dissociation (basically I feel really disconnected from the world like my brain is disconnected from my body) and my heart starts racing really fast. I don't know what you would call this but it has happened about two or three times since the start of the semester. It takes me a while to recover mentally after these and the last one happened on Christmas. I still feel like a nervous wreck and I am constantly thinking about this and can't stop. When I think about it, it makes me even more nervous and gives me even more anxiety..I just fear having a panic attack like the one I had with the weed situation even though it has never happened again and when I start to disocciate I fear having a panic attack. Please help, I just want to live like a normal person again. Thank you 
Hi. I understand how you feel with regards to the fear you create in your mind that it will happen again. We almost talk ourselves into feeling anxious or panicked. It really is awful and I feel for you. Have you ever spoken to your Dr about treatment for anxiety. That would be my first suggestion. See what they advise to get you through this rough time.
Chase
Personally I would keep of the cookies or not smoke weed. What is done is done and now you move on. You made an error in a moment of time, you need t understand that and realize you have moved on and learned a lesson. Now forget about it.
Everyone throughout their lives as moments of stress, anxiety, we move on and learn from experience. You have Learned a Lesson.
Enjoy your life
BOB
Wayyy easier said than done as I've had numerous panic attacks and one weed induced one which seemed to trigger my intrusive thoughts and OCDish tendencies to a hellish level, in that they became out of control and was pure hell, and I literally felt possessed. Not fun. I can now laugh about it 8 years later and tell the story when people ask why I haven't smoked since. Trust me though, I know how you're feeling and it's the furthest thing from being funny when experiencing it.
On an optimistic note though, even though the condition isn't positive, this sounds like CLASSIC anxiety. Something that you feel trapped and alone, but millllllions of others have also experienced, and ALL of us have thought we were going to go crazy/die/lose it/break with reality. It's just the nature of the condition. It's a huge spider web with many threads to it that branch in different directions and manifest in different ways. I had heard the term "rabbit hole" used for it before and personally don't like it. It's not some hole you're going to dig yourself into and never come out, which is one of the things that feeds anxiety and gives us this illusion it's hopeless. It's a tangled web and you can tear that sucker down eventually. I remember the first time I ever took a medication to help my anxiety, it cleared up 1)panic attacks 2)depression 3)intrusive harming thoughts 4)most physical bodily symptoms I was experiencing. It was at that moment I had this "aha" revelation and deep feeling that my anxiety was this big web that branched out, and if I treated the source, the whole thing got torn down. Boom, just like that. A little pinpoint that spun a huge web, not a deep helpless hole. There's numerous routes to get there and get better. Take whatever necessary steps. It won't be over night, but It will happen. What seems like eternity now with your body stressed to its limits, will seem like a blip on your radar in the future if you get the necessary help. Best of luck.