I woke up this morning and realized I have gone 15 days without a drink. That's half a month. I haven't been able to accomplish This ever since I was a teenager except when pregnant with my girls. I'm unbelievably overwhelmed with gratitude. The thing that keeps me strong is remembering how sick I was that first week I stumbled upon this website. I was so sick and weak and I never want to be powerless to my own body again,. I have been up working out for about 45 minutes now. I use a fitbit to track my exercise and steps and sleep and my night time sleep patterns although are far from perfect are at least 70 percent better than when I was drinking, . I feel so thankful and am filled with such gratitude I just had to share it. Thank you all for your advice and your encouragement . We all have strength inside us or we wouldn't be here on this website being honest and sharing our problems, hope everyone has a wonderful day
Thank you, when I do look back I see an ugly shameful past. One I want very much to overcome and walk with my head held high. Sobriety is a gift and it's finally sinking in, I'm taking this gift and holding it tight!
well done you..i wish i was as strong as you..i need help and encouragement. im sat here crying my little heart out. i know there is light at the end of the tunnel, but i cant find the bloody tunnel. how did u find the strength to get over and through it all..im so lost inside that i dont know what to do..im so sorry to put a damper on your postive post but im literally dying inside..since i found this website and forum ive found strength but not enough to over come my demons..im in the uk, i dont have many friends and my family are 300 miles away, so only a phone call but i need a big hug and for some one to tell me its ok. i get positivity from reading post like yours and it does help, but as soon as i see, smell alcohol thats me done and dusted for at least 5 days. i keep getting told to go to church and speak with someone there, but im not and never have been religious. ive tried docs, social workers, even rang samaritans but i always feel like a satistic, like they dont understand and im just another notch of there bedpost...so to speak..i do exercise, i walk at least 7k a day on school runs..2 and half hours a day over 5 days is quite a lot..but it doesnt fulfil my soul..please give me strentgh to do what you have done...ive always drunk always been a drinker from a young age..i turned 31 in august but i remember stealing thunderbird and babysham of my mum at such a young age..( the drink its self will speak for that as u cant even buy it now) im so lost i just want to end it all.but my poor kids..please any advice will be taken..once again i need to apologise for this message as i dont want to bring you down. you are an inspiration and you should be so proud. but apart from this website i have no one..please continue to stay dry, because people like me need to read these post to realise life is still worth living. hope you continue to stay dry because like i said earlier there is light at the end of tunnel and you found it..so pass the map so i can find mine xxxx
Oh sweetheart, don't apologize. You are in the battle of your life FOR your life. Don't ever apologize for that. You didn't choice this, just as I didn't, I'm 37 years old. I struggled just as you are for many Years. Many Many times the only thing that kept me even attempting to fight these demons were my kids, if not for them I'm sure I would have ended my life long ago. Your not alone. Addiction is the darkest place ones mind can be in, I so feel your pain. I do have to credit my courage to finally change to the Lord.... I know you said you were religious but for me that's what finally worked. I was shocked when I quit drinking and day 4 got sick, I have no idea why I was shocked but I was. I drank ans still do so much water trying to flush my system out and also gives me something to hold in my hand and keep drinking. I know a lot of the good people on. here recommend the Sinclair method and Mayne you need some medical help to continue this, your desire is there . I can feel it, it's what lead you to this site, same as it lead me. You deserve to live a sober life and have the gift of sobriety
Last night ans several nights this week I keep dreaming I have relapsed . Apparetnky this is normal when you stop but it literally scares me for the first half hour of waking up until I realize it was only a dream and I'm still in control. I gained momentum my firs week and saw a side of me I have so missed, it's what keeps me going. Today is day 16 for me. I realized I do have strength in me but boy did I fight for it for a very long time and I gave up more times than I can count. My heart goes out to you. I know the struggle is real I know the pain and the emptiness and the frustration and self loathing are all real. I'm here to talk . You have to start by believing in yourself and I do believe you finding this site was not by accident . I believe you can do this.
I can totally relate, I have had sleeping problems since a child and usually drank to pass out. I am currently on l
Klonopin to help me sleep have been for over a year but what I realized is now not drinking it works much better. I still have some nights that are bad but there is improvement. Klonopin stops those racing thoughts, well it's supposed to anyways, I'm on a very high dose. probAbly will be for ever
tried to reply..phoned samartians im so lost...yeh not good at all..being blackmailed by my ex..trying it on and if i dont he will tell social all my probs even though im so honest..im asking for help but im not getting any..literally got a olive branch in my hand..spoke to his dad he knew nothing about it all and had no sympathy..he will alwayd bk his son. im sat here shaking like a leaf, darent walk shop . i dont want to drink, please ive been docs, police , social, health visitors..ive got no where else to go