Happy News For me...and temptation arises

General health and lifestyle
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I went into my mailbox yesterday and there was an envelope from Federal Government.  

I had called my Lawyer last week to ask what is going on with the benefit request that I initiated 2 years ago...my Lawyer said she would get back to me and never did.

So...I open the letter and there is a note that asks me to sign a particular line and the note also says "you were approved for benefits..return ASAP".

Immediately....I wanted to celebrate...Immediately I wanted to drink. I have been drowning my sorrows in alcohol over lost employment and lost family connections for the last 2 years!

Why not celebrate?  My STUPID brain asked me?

Um...because you will die...that is why.  So my BRAIN says..."No you won't, just have a few".  

My logic says...its is NEVER a few....so NO...I'm keeping very busy.  Praising God for my good fortune...and I'm about to stop by a  yard sale near my home.

Hope you all that are trying to stay sober...are doing well.

Hope anyone who is struggling finds some hope today to make a plan to stop.

Life is so much better sober..and I need to remember that (especially right now).

 

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Wonderful news!!! You made the right decision 😀

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Good for you. Its so easy to give into our foolish thoughts of temptation ..... I allow myself to think whatever my little brain wants to but I always remember the truth, the outcome . There are so many other ways to celebrate and I'm glad you found one. hope everyone is enjoying a beautiful sober day

Lori

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Misssy, I am filled with admiration.

That's a huge achievement.

Love Tess xxx

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Yea and I think I will splurge on a seafood dinner tonight.

And drink sparkly soda!

 

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You can do this tess....don't QUIT - QUITTING

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Well, its going to be a daily decision

And I wish I didn't have the burden of alcohol demons....lol

And...thank you

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I do take medication for cravings.

But, pills can't do all the work!  I really don't have cravings for alcohol in particular....I have cravings to be normal and be able to drink....but No...

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Misssy, have you checked out SMART Recovery and REBT for the BPD problem? 

Just looking in from the outside, it seems like you might get a scare when you have strong emotions in general. Which would tend to lead to wanting to quash them with drink, which worse than doesn't work....

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And congrats on your dilligence paying off too!!!

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Enjoy!!! 💞💞💞

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Hi ADEfree!  No I haven't tried SMART recovery I kind of have a grudge against it...but I think I should re-think my reasons for not trying it because it could save my life.

A friend of mine runs one of the groups...And i was mad at her for a situation about 5 years ago and we haven't spoken since (her choice).  

So actually she texted me lately and told me that she looks for my picture in the obituary all the time....and we have kind of softened our differences.  

So thank you for the idea.  Even thou I have been communicating here and there with her..she didn't mention it...and she wouldn't.

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There are some reviews on the handbook on Amazon and GoodReads, I recall some saying that it was easier to read the handbook then go on the website afterwards for support with the finer points/commiseration/moral support. 

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Very cool to have a friend that runs one of the groups, btw! That could turn into a real plus!

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Thank you and I just realized I missed an N/A meeting last night that I really like.

I like it because: #1 it is Air Conditoned...#2 they have very soft cushioned chairs and #3 they always have food...last time I went they had hot dogs with all the fixings.

#4 They give away "sober chips" every week and they consider Alcohol to be a drug so they don't mind if you talk about alcohol.

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So pleased for you Missy

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Thank you...hope you are enjoying a pleasant day.

I just started posting on the DIET board..OMG.

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Good lock with that!

Not that I've ever been there.......................

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Its just a matter of counting calories...but I'm on Day 3 of doing that...and starving...LOL..I imagine my body would get used to this.

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"#4 They give away "sober chips" every week and they consider Alcohol to be a drug so they don't mind if you talk about alcohol."

Well, it is a drug. That's what I like about TSM, it uses a drug to remove the compulsion exactly reverse of the way that the drug alcohol put the compulsion there.