I'm very friendly and talkative but the more stressed I start to feel the less talkative and more self conscious I am. All of my best friends that don't go here (high school friends) have found their groups already and I'm really upset. One of them goes to a college near me and knows my situation but continues to basically brag about her partying and all of her new friends and she doesn't really offer to invite me. She said sure I can come but like none of my "friends" here will go. I have several random friends that I'm not close to at all and I feel so empty and alone and this is stressing me out so much. I'm gonna be honest-- all the people I've started talking to have all dated people and have boyfriends and have had sex and I haven't done any of that!! It always shocks people cuz I look like someone who has. People don't know how innocent I am and this makes me feel like SUCH a loser. I don't fit in I hate this I miss my real friends but they're all having a great time at their colleges and everything sucks!! I act chill on the outside but I get so stressed/anxious I start to shake a little. I feel like I can't be myself and when I do try to be myself I'm forcing it. I don't even feel like a person anymore I feel like an observer. Like I don't exist?! Please please please help me!! I'm putting myself out there but idk nothing's working!! I feel so so lame cuz I ended up hanging out with people that bond over sex stories and boyfriends and weed and I literally can't relate I'm so upset. Please please help. I feel like nobody actually likes me I want to cry but I can't
I ask dumb questions and people r like "lol ur so cute" because I'm basically a child apparently and it's my first weekend at college and I'm lierally staying in my dorm but not by choice. There's no one to go with me. I'm going to this college cuz it's close to home (30 mins) and it predominantly (very very predominantly) a music school but I'm here for art and that's not super common here. my friend said to come to her school but theres no art majors there.....
Hi l really think you are over thinking this from what I have read this is probably your first week of college.Trust me you are not stupid or weird.When we go into a new school we latch on to people because we want to fit in however they mostly drop off as we find people we have more in common with.Try to join clubs where you will meet more like minded people don't just settle for people who make you feel odd.Give yourself time l know there are a lot of people feeling like you right now.