hey everyone,
im a long time anxiety sufferer. i suffered over a year before they could tell me it was anxiety. i am slowly recovering after being put on celepram(cit) since january. most of my symptoms are gone i do get the odd flare up of anxiety every once and a while which is annoying as ■■■■ but cant be helped.
anyway enough blabbing! so i went to the doctors yesterday for my 3 months checkup and to get some results from a holter monitor i had done about 2 months ago. he said that i had a sinus trachycardia and have to see the cardiologist. he didnt seem to worry as much and i think he felt confident that it was all my stress and anxiety. i mean if it was serious he would have rang me weeks ago when he got the results right? he also told me that hes never met anyone like me that worries so much....should i take that as a compliment LOL anyway im trying NOT to worry but that little voice in the back of my head says otherwise. the most beats pm was 177 and the lowest was 56 when i was asleep. mind you on the paper the time of the 177 was when i was about to get it off and i suppose i couldnt wait as i had a reaction to the tape they stuck it to me with.
sorry for rambling and i hope someone reads this and can shine a light i dont think it is all the time just when im stressed and anxious which i would be stressed all the time because i have 2 young children that i look after with minimal help and i suppose ive let myself go into this black hole of anxiety and just cant seem to get out which i think about constantly. i just wish this anxiety would go away and never bother anyone with it. its horrible and deep down im kinda scared that their is something wrong with my heart. i see the cardiologist in about 2 weeks so we'll see till then ill probably be stressing!
Good luck to you but I know how you feel, this anxiety isn't fun, have had mine for awhile now but it runs in my family plus I have insomnia issues too, on clonazepam for that plus anxiety and in citolapram too, 10 mg once a day, 6 weeks on that one. Good luck to you, I too worry about the littlest things.
hey cindy,
thanks for the reply yes its a pain in the butt! i wish you all the best on your journey and hope everything works out well for you!
Hi Cassandra,
Hope you ain't stressing too much as it is a waste of time stressing over something that ain't happened yet! Old Shinto phylosophy! Actually, I read it in the novel 'Shogun' many moons ago and have incorporated it into my life - it works! Mind you reading that book, good as it is, is enough to take yer mind off of anything.
We all know it is so easy to say this when we are not the one worrying, but even with this and I keep saying "go with the flow!" I went through something similar three months ago. The anxiety, shortness of breath and (no holding back) paranoia) put me in the same position (both my parents had heart problems and have passed) so my Doctor sent me for a male check up. Full bloods, ECG and other tests and trials. Everything came back ok except one - I need to loose a couple of stone in weight. I was relieved, byt it took a while for the stressing to go away! I did look at it that in 6 years I had not had the time to look after me self, so this was a start and I would have to accept the outcome of the results. If things were not right then they found the problem and would put it right!
We do not know your support system, but if you are bringing up two children on yer own it may be an idea to get Family or Friends to help you through.
In the meantime chin up try not to worry, but you will and remember we can support you through here!
Take Care.
Regards,
David
thanks for your reply david much appreciated! im an absolute worry wart so it has gotten to me a little bit but i know deep down it is just the anxiety doing it. i mean the doctor didnt seem too fussed so it wouldnt be anything to worry about. i just think if something happens to me that no one will look after my kids like i do! my partner is great at listening and he supported me heaps at the start when i was a complete mess. he works a couple of days of the week and i stay home with the kids. i just get frustrated having to do everything for everyone without that much help. i need to start focusing a bit more on myself and taking time out. i went for a walk today and by god it felt great.
how have you been going with everything? has your anxiety settled down? does yours still flare up every now and then?
Hi,
Exercise is good, I only wish I could return to running which was always my way of easing any pressures or the uneccessary stress life throws at you. Since me Doc banned me from all contact sports in 2005 I ain't been able to be as fit as I used to. Osteo Arthritis in both knees!
Re anxiety, no not really anymore, anger has been something I have been troubled with this past week and a bit. I finally agreed a settlement on the termination of my contract from work and they have just been complete (censored)'s today! Everything is agreed I signed the paperwork at my solicitors yesterday and the Chair of the Board did his bit however, the office manager is (censored) about not releasing my sick certificate which I have to send asap to the benefits people as I don't know when I will be signed fit for work! It has thrown me off kilter today, but Ann (Fiancee) is, as usual, solid and we are trying not to let me slip into some bad place.
Actually, if they do (censored) continue to (censored) me about then I think they will be in breach of the agreement.
Relax and breathe ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
Anyway, if you are at home and not already in the cardiac wing of ICU then I think they are not too worried about you. Plus if you were not too bad, but worry would make you worse, they'd have dragged you in without a doubt! So, please do try not to worry. I know it is easy for anyone else to say and that's coming from an old past doubter, but when I went ill and then the "worries" appeared, I had a good chat with my 12 year old daughter and Ann. I explained everything from how I was feeling to what tests the surgery would be carrying out to how paranoid did they think I was! Lol! Do you know, I felt quite calm after, once everyone around me understood (others as well) and we carried on! Mind you there were still downs as well as ups, but at least those I love and love me understand. Like today for example!
Keep walking as we all know fitness is good for us and keep talking, especially to yer husband, Family, Friends and Forum-ers!
Take care and nice to chat.
Regards,
David & Ann
thanks david you always put things in to perspective thanks for the advice and chat its greatly appreciated! i hope everything gets sorted out soon for you and they stop mucking you around! im glad you have your daughter and ann to get you through! you've come along way and im glad you've been able to help me to! theres only so much a loved one can say to you when they havent been through something like this so its great to chat to someone who knows exactly how it feels!
thankyou david!
cassandra