:roll: I have had ME since 1983,
:roll: Then, advised to get more exercise by my GP's partner at the time.
It had taken me an hour to walk about two thousand yard,s downhill
had to go back up again, I was not able to drive, this left me in bed absolutely exhausted.
I thought I would get some help or relief as every joint was screamingly painful
After six week off work, in and out of bed, crawling to wherever I wanted to go in the house, and still having to have a lots of rest
Standing was scary, I was so disorientated and light headed and oh so weak,
I had to go back to work under protest,the business I was running was deterioting fast, although I was never the same person who had left before.
Every thought, every activity was soul destroying and forced
I went to work, I went home to bed, I rose for work,
that was all I did for those years,
My family were despairing of any company from me at all,
They grew up watching me crawl around,getting on with their lives.
I spent shopping trips and days out sleeping in the car in car parks and seaside esplanades.
When I did venture out I usually had to return to the car,
Lighting in many shops was so glaring it hurt and brought on terrible headaches and loss of focus,
the noise from refrigeration units especially grated in my head,
I thought I was imagining the effects ordinary everyday things were doing to me. odours, scents became extremely potent and intrusive ,sensivity to temperature diferences, debilitating me rapidly,pespiring one moment shivering seconds later
I always walked behind, as i could never keep up the walking pace no matter how slow,continually stopping for rest,
my legs became very painful and so heavy every step a cognitive effort my left leg to this day still lags behind
I gave up working in 1986 because I could no longer think straight or logically any more,physically,phsychologically i was empty, completely drained of any will to do anything, after trying to cope normally for over three years,I basically could no longer cope and the business sold
I had nothing left and was glad it was over,there came many medicines visits to doctors and clinics, a course of duogastrone, landed me in hospital for test as i was unable to stand i was weaker than ever before my heart was going crazy, slow,missed,extra? and fast beats, blood pressure was wild, many test proved cause was depleted pottasium due to the above medicine,
I was glad I was released early,there was no heating in the ward,
Never any sleep for 3 days, the cold was making me so ill,
this is where the diagnoses came about in late 1988,
continued with varying degrees of these symptoms ever since,
You feel alone, every one I knew became a bit wary of me, even my family, forever refusing invites for almost anything,
Never knew if I would be able to take part in whatever was planned.
Symptoms today are as varied and as many as all other ME sufferers, some days, lucid bright and kind of active in my case, followed by the reckoning to various degrees,and lengths of time being incapacitated
I never plan anything, but take every chance to do something every day,no matter how little, you just roll forward and hope that you complete what you started,
This is as I was once told, not life, but my life
:oops: Please excuse my grammar as this is excruciating trying to make some sense
Best wishes to who are ill