Having a horrendous time

Hi!

I was on Mirtazapine 4 approximately 14 years and have been off it now for 19 1/2 months and am still suffering horrendously with the following symptoms: chronic insomnia (can go for 4-5 nights and days without any sleep then may get a couple of hours of very broken sleep and then back to no sleep), burning, tingling, numbness throughout out body, burning brain, adrenaline surges, vibrations throughout body and brain, myoclonic jerks, extreme exhaustion/fatigue, depersonalization/derealization, hearing loss, heart palpitations, panic attacks and the list goes on. I was also taking Seroquel for 4 years (off for 2 1/2 years), Gabapentin for 14 years (off for 3 1/2 years) and Zoplicone for 7 months (off for 3 1/2 years). I slow tapered off all these poisons, however due to the fact I’m very paradoxical 2 antihistamines and both Seroquel and Remeron have strong antihistamine qualities, I jumped off the last little bit of both of them but not at the same time.

Is it normal 2 b still suffering so horrendously after being totally off all psych poisons for so long. My G.P. and wonderful herbalist say yes and I have seen many others on the message boards that r going through the same suffering I am. It is totally debilitating, painful and horrendous to have to suffer like this 4 so long. I’m all alone and have no one 2 help me with anything. I also suffer from hypothyroidism, adrenaline exhaustion, have cataracts on both eyes which will be removed by the 7th of February 2019, have had 2 basil cell carcinomas removed from my head last September and have recently been diagnosed with a left branch bundle block in my heart and don’t know at this point the severity of it as I’m scheduled to c a Caardiologist but haven’t got a date yet.

Please, I desperately need some reassurance that this is still normal for w/d from Mirtazapine after being on it for so long.

If there is anyone that has gone through this as severely as I have and would b willing to either do a Facebook messenger video chat or phone chat, please let me know. I also have free long distance in Canada and United States so if u could p.m. me your number I could call u and the call would be free.

Sorry for the long post. I am desperate 2 get well but feel this will never end.

How slow did you taper off these drugs ?

It will help with any advice ?

Hi Barbara

We have talked here before. And I just want to say again that I’m so sorry for the suffering you’re experiencing.

Even though its been 19 agonizing months post-discontinuance after being poly drugged for over a decade (14), I would say what you’re experiencing is normal for someone very sensitive.

Taking all those drugs places a toll on your CNS/ENS (Gabapentin, Mirtazapine, Seroquel & Zoplicome).

They alter our very complex receptors throughout our body, not just in our brain, and for some folks it takes much more time to gain back homeostasis than others.

“Accepting” it in a non-passive way is hard, but fighting it could definitely make your w/d feel more punishing.

Try to relinquish all resistance as you experience the worsening. it may just help.

Bless you.