Health Anxiety melt down

I recently called my primary regarding my blood work since I came down with shingles last month. Her assistant told me everything came out fine.

I just looked over my blood work and I'm somewhat freaking out. Since I noticed from last year to now that my lymphocyte % went from 40 to 42.6% though what confuses me is that my absolute lymphocyte account is 2386 which is within the normal range. And WBC came out to 5.6

My hemoglobin and hematocrit came high. Though, my doc previously has said that means I'm truly healthy that I'm overproducing red blood cells. A few years back I would had believed her, though now I fear some crazy blood cancer coming up.I

I've been having some clearish spots coming out in my skin. My psychologist and my mom say that it's just stress or heat causing that. Not some crazy cancer.

It doesn't help I'm middle stages of withdrawal from my anti depressant.

I don't see my primary until mid August. I thought my coping skills would help me though I'm I having a meltdown.

However, if she had noticed something odd, she would had rushed me in for additional testing. I

Like I mentioned before I just went through a shingles outbreak last month.

I'm regretting having taken the blood test just after and to make it worse reading the results.

You shouldn’t worry. If there was something serious your doctor would of called you in to do more tests trust me. Health anxiety sucks I also have it all the time horrible 😩

Also high white cells can be from a infection like shingles so that would explain that

That's what I'm forcing myself to think. Her assistant would had told me to come in for more tests, instead said, you're good. You're blood work is normal. 

I just looked at the supplemental sheet with the labs range for lymphocytes %, and from what I see I'm still within range (18-45%) I'm at 42.6. However, seeing it jump from 40 to that number freaked me out. Seems that every lab has a different range % Because I kept on finding posts that a normal gauge was between 18-40% That's what lead to my melt down. Though, I came across a video from YouTube were this guy was freaking out about X WBC that was low, while his lymphocyte was at 43, and his lab's range was from 26-46% He wasn't freaking out about that. I calmed myself down. 

I think I should just rest, and realize that yea the most reasonable answer it was my shingles that triggered my system to over produce lymphocytes to combat my shingles since every other WBC is normal. If not, my dr would had sent me ASAP to a specialist or pushed my appointment sooner. 

Yes exactly your doctor isn’t going to joke around with you and not tell you that you are about to drop dead so your results are good not bad. I am the same I will go to the doctor thinking I have some kind of cancer then they will say don’t be stupid you are to young then get a blood test everything is normal so I am happy for like a day then I get my symptoms back and then think the blood test must be wrong never ending process for me 😩. 

That's how I feel right now. for example just this morning I noticed some new reddish spots on my forearm and my mind quickly goes to leukemia. It's horrible. 😟

The only red flags on my report were my red blood cells. I do too much of them. My Dr has previously said, oh no. You're really healthy. Plus from what I read something truly bad must happen for me to become anemic or something worse. Though try telling that to my anxiety raddled mind. Moments like this kinda want to go back into anti depressant, though my insurance is about to be cut when I get a job, I decided to withdrawal from it, and once I get a good job get back on them.

Boy, I think I overblew this since I read the chart were it mentioned that if Red Blood cells were low, then C word would come to play, though like I mentioned before I'm overpopulated with RBC. So, yea this is just my body fighting back the shingles, hence my dr's assistant saying, oh you're good. I'm so embarrassed. 

 

Yeah health anxiety sucks 😩. I am also convinced I have lymphoma always something with me aswell 

Same here. This is my latest c word that i think have. 🤦

Yep I have had heaps of different c words dam you anxiety but never ends out being any of them 🤦‍♂️. It’s all in our head 

When i was under medication. I had stopped thinking about it. Though, coming out, everything came flooding back. 😔

I have taken paroxetine for Ike 15 years only takes the edge off my anxiety also I take lorazepam which is a tranquilzer but it is amazing but only get 10 pills at a time highly addictive 

Have you thought of taking anti depressants? When i was on them they helped greatly with my anxiety and depression. Plus, if you're going for therapy they help when trying to learn some coping skills. I took 5mg of trintellix. Sadly, due to financial reason i had to cut myself from it.

I have for 15 years paroxetine is a antidepressant but only gives me a mild affect that is why I take lorazepam now and again. I have tryed a lot of different antidepressant in the past but same affect 

Tried others though caused me chest pains, sexual dysfunction, or weight gain. Trintellix was the only one that I had few to none side effects. Though, the withdrawal from it is brutal.

Yep it sucks aye 😱

I just hope I get over it soon since I loath feeling weak since I love running and doing my dumbbell weights. It's my destressor. I did a 1.5mile uphill run last week, and it killed me. Thought, I no choice to do it. 

Just remember anxiety is all in your head so once you can get through your symptoms you will be back to normal good luck 

Same to you. 🙂