Health anxiety overblown?!!!!

[nh_user_1066046]

Hi guys i need some help. I still start at the beginning.

4 weeks ago i was wondering what would happen to people after death and researched on Google on people that have died and come back to life and read their experiences. Everything was fine but the concept of death always scared me and i always questioned what would happen to us

A couple days later i get a nightmare about something happening to a loved one. It was scary because that person was traveling the day after on a flight and i was really nervous until they reached safely.

Here is the turning point. A day later i get a crazy nightmare of me being at the doctors and then diagnosing me with a brain tumor. I yelled at myself to wake up but couldn't and completely believed it was real life. I woke up eventually but shook it off. But it was on my mind. Then i remember i had these constant minor headaches and then i researched that cell phones could cause brain cancer and convinced myself i had it since i always sleep next to it. Then i started googling symptoms and my ears started heating up and i trembled. Immediately after i started getting seizure like symptoms and weird feelings and i thought i definitely had it. This was going on for a couple days and then i started getting head pressure and what do you know? More worries.

Went to the doctor and he told me i had sinusitis and i felt so relieved and felt normal again. Gave me antibiotics and it went away after a few days. Then he told to take a physical. Then i remembered having unprotected sexual encounters with some past gfs of mine and convinced myself i had HIV. I also got flu like symptoms 4 weeks after a sexual encounter and i thought i knew i had it. Took all the blood tests and everything came back negative. Felt really relieved and normal again for a few days. Then i started developing a weird sensation in my stomach/ chest area and it just stays there constantly and the head pressure also came back.

What do you know? Back to square one. I tested for allergies for the pressure in the head and the ear blockage and it came back negative and that scared me more because what could this head pressure and ear block be? Then i google more and get more worried

Then i started developing hypnic jerks at night right when i am about to fall asleep. It slowly got worse and happened several times in the past few days. Every time i get these jerks, i feel a rush in my head and pressure. I convinced my self again i have something wrong this time for sure and it's not anxiety.

I am also getting random flashbacks of past memories. Also childhood memories and that scares me more as its so random. I have this constant weird feeling in my chest/ stomach area and my fingers are constantly shaking. The head pressure and ear block is also there.

All my bloodwork was normal except i just had low vitamin d level for which i am taking tablets now.

What do you think guys? Do i really have a BT? I am finding myself wanting to cry everytime i think about my mom, dad, or brothwr like i am gonna be leaving them soon. Doctor wont give me mri or ct scan but i feel like I am gonna go crazy if i don't do an mri and find out if i have anything.

I've never had anxiety like this happen to me in my life. I am 22 and i am very fit and i weight lift a lot.

Ive found that i have more energy than ever before during the past few days like i can keep running and lifting without getting tired. Is that because of the anxiety?

Thanks if you read everything.

[nh_user_998356]

Sam,

all your test came out normal. What has happened is that FEAR has taken you over!

FEAR  stands for false evidence appearing real! You were taking the symptoms and right away thinking worst-case scenario.  The symptoms are the false evidence of some terrible disease. Fear is not based on facts.

Fear and negative thinking have infiltrated. Your mind to the point where that's all you can see.

 every symptom you have had I have also had. When I was in my 20s I thought I had some awful disease. I am now in my 50s Sam, and all is well. Yes I get occasional symptoms of anxiety but I pretty much ignore them because I know it's all from  overthinking! 

 please don't do what I did which was waste over 20 years of my life worrying about something that never happened. I was always afraid that either I was going to die, or my parents or family members were going to die.

WHAT A WASTE OF THOSE YEARS! 

The jerks you get at night I have also had and it's due to anxiety. 

I have also had the flashbacks of past memories.

Anxiety and stress can also cause head pressure, blocked ear feeling in hundreds of other symptoms.All of this is due to an over anxious brain!

 you're not going to die! You're a young healthy man and have your whole life to live. It's just that stress and anxiety has gotten a hold of you and causes all the negative thinking. Believe me, I've been through it all! 

 The key to this whole thing is combing down the brain because all anxiety starts in the brain. I am going to continue this later on with some more information for you. Hang in there you're going to be just fine! 😁❤️

 

[nh_user_998356]

 I meant we have to calm down the brain. 

 you must take control of your thinking and turn it around. I never realized how much my negative thinking had affected my life until not too long ago when I decided I can't do it anymore. I must do something to take charge of my life and be happy again. 

No longer do I picture horrible things happening to me or my family members because those are just random thoughts. They are not real. They are made up in our minds which can only hurt us.  Our thoughts are just that they're only fleeting thoughts and they are not a part of us. We have to learn to acknowledge them but then let them go as though dissolving in the air. Do that every single time you get a negative thought and eventually your mind will do it automatically for you. Don't react with anxiety when you get a scary thought because the anxiety will get worse. React in a calm manner.  You're convincing yourself that something is terribly wrong with you when that is most likely not the case at all! 

I will share with you some things that have really helped me a lot.

 first of all, I got some counseling with a person who specializes in anxiety. It really helps to speak with someone else and get all your feelings out. They know how to help. 

 secondly, a couple times a day I listen to guided meditations for anxiety on YouTube. They help teach you how to separate your negative thinking from yourself. Especially one called detachment from overthinking  and another called clearing subconscious negativity. There are many to choose from. I think they could really help you!  Either type in the title of the meditation or type in guided meditation's for anxiety. They also have them for depression, sleeping well etc. 

YouTube also has positive self affirmations. I listen to them when I walk in play them in my car all the time. After a while your subconscious begins to believe they are true and it turns your thinking around in a positive direction.

 if there's anyway you can get a book called mindfulness it teaches you all of this and it's very helpful! It teaches us how to get back our peace of mind. 

 definitely stay off of googling symptoms! The odds are they don't pertain to you anyway and you'll just scary yourself for no reason. 

 The worst thing you can do is sit around and think too much about this. Stay active in social it keeps your mind off of negative thinking. 

 get some exercise because that releases a feel-good hormones from the brain. 

 don't take life too seriously. Remember to laugh and smile as it has been shown to make positive changes in the brain! 

 be good to yourself. Don't be too hard on yourself. 

 Focus on living and not on dying. We must live in the present moment. The past is just memories in the future is not here yet nobody can predict it. If you spend today living in the past or  Bring about what might happen in the future you will lose today which you can never get back! That is the biggest lesson I learned after wasting 20 years of my life. I have decided that I'm not going to worry about anything and if something should come up in the future then I will deal with it at that time. 

"WHAT IF"  thinking is a complete waste of time and LIFE!!

 so, in closing remember you are the one who is supposed to be in control of your thoughts! Not the other way around. Be a fighter for yourself.! Never give up!  Your relentless in the pursuit of a happy day and live in the present moment, not the past or the future. Don't be frustrated if one do you feel fine and the next you don't. That is normal in the process of healing from this. 

- listen to the audio meditations 

- get the book if you can 

-keep busy

- react calmly to any symptoms 

- speak with a counselor if you can 

 you are young healthy man. Go and enjoy your life, smile and laugh !😁🌸🌸

 

[nh_user_1066046]

Thanks a lot!! I feel so much better just by reading for post. Good to know that i am not alone.

I also have my hands or feet moving up when about to fall asleep. There is this constant head rush when i stand up.

I try to keep telling myself that it's the nightmare that triggered all this because this all happening because of it but the more symptoms i get the more scared i get and think what if it was a sign i do have something.

It really is a vicious cycle. I really don't think i can be normal again until i get an mri scan and know for sure but doctors don't give it to me.

It really is tough to control it since i constantly think about it.

[nh_user_1056450]

I would try a different doctor as I suffer from health anxiety also

And regardless if they think nothing sinister going on they have to check out your concerns I had MRI while back due to constant burning over my body they thought was neurological but it came back clear but just having that helped calm me down it was another weight of my mind.. I'd ask to see someone's new and tell them that this is really affecting your every day life

[nh_user_1056450]

A mean my doctors where great and they new id just keep coming back and back to them worrying and they done as much as they could in the gp office so was really the only other option... same when I got stomach pains a worried myself

Sick until got camera down to tell me it was just inflammation but again it took the weight off my shoulders

[nh_user_1059551]

Hi. I too similar to Jan wasted years and years worrying and having negative thoughts, ( irrational thoughts) but to me I just constantly thought bad things were going to happen. I didn't ask for help as I thought I was the only one who felt like this and I was mad , I just could not shake the feeling of dread, horrid heart racing and physical symptoms too. I'm glad you have reached out for help at a young age. All tests come back fine and reasurance that your anxiety is making this feel so bad will hopefully reasure you. Personally I wouldn't google, you pick out the worst case scenario and get anxious and convince yourself of this. Great tips from Jan, try to get mind off obsessing( know not easy , but you have to try, glad your looking for help, great people here with great advice on how to cope , and good to know you are not alone, know how awful and strange anxiety is❤️