My 16yr old left me tonight. My ex came and picked him up. He's taken such a huge chunk of my heart with him. Feel so lost and suicidal. Trying to numb the pain with vodka, but it hurts so much.
dont drink the vodka please just talk on here
Oh Mami, I am so, so sorry. I know how much it hurts, I wish I could do something to help. I even wish I could come and drink that vodka with you, we could get drunk together and have a good cry. It worries me that you are drinking alone though, please, please be careful. I think you should go to bed now and sleep.
I wanted to ask you about how the birthday went yesterday, but I guess you won't be feeling like talking about that.
I am so sorry love.
I wish I had seen this earlier, but I couldn't have helped I suppose.
I am here if you want to talk at any time on pm. You are so special to me.
Pat
Thanks Pat. Don't worry haven't drunk much. I'm not my Mam. Today's been so hard. I'm broken. Really don't feel I have anything to live for anymore. So sorry. You've been such a good friend to me. xxx
talk to every one on here please
i get worried about my gf sister try to get my son of me please talk dont be alone
we should all go down and have a good chat and a cry
I still am and always will be your friend.
Tell me you are still OK. Don't frighten me so much, please. Tell me you are not going to do anything tonight, please, please.
hope she is ok am getting worried now
How are you today, Mami? I thought of you when I woke up and hoped there would be something here to put my mind at rest.
Take care my friend.
Pat xxxx
Hi Pat, I'm still here, struggling on. Sorry to worry you so much. xxx
Please don't apologise. Glad to hear you posting. You are very brave to struggle on as you do.
Try to have a good day,
Patxxxxxxxx
Don't feel very brave. Just plodding on hour by hour, or even minute by minute.
Thanks for your friendship and all your support. Much appreciated. xxxx
Mami, are you never going to see him again? If not why not? Is there a court order stopping you from seeing him? After all he is 16 years old so he can make up his own mind. He is probably feeling the same as you inside. If you take your own life it is permenant and you will never see him again, however withn time you will be able to see him and all that hurt and unhappy feelings will disappear. There is the other side to it, if you do do it? How will your son feel? He will have to carry around the thought that his mother was a victim of suicide. He lost his Mami and it could just end up as a vicious circle of events that carry on and on.
mami you just keep talking and talking and talking. What that does is stops you ruminating and thinking of all those bad feelings you have. Do things different, look at yourself in a different way. You can now be your own person. Do things that you want to do. After all every mother and father in the land feels the same way when their children leave home. I must be the exception I cheered when mine left to go into the wider world. Suicidal feelings will pass with time. However have a First Aid Plan ready if your feelings get so bad, Write the things and people you can contact before trying anything. These are people who you trust and can talk to. Get them on board first and talkabout your First Aid Plan if things get too difficult. They will be there to listen to you as a buddy. If you cannot contact an organisation that deals with acute self-harming problems then get your First Aid Plan buddy to contact them for you. They will then contact you. Remember mami TIAAA (There is always an alternative) Hope you understand therenare a lot of people out there that will be hurt if you do something rash. Good luck and keep talking, even if you bore the pants off of them. Talking is the best medicine. Best regards Peter.